I need Focus...

I need Focus... a lot of them .... Just finished 2 local projects.... 1 awaiting and 1 ongoing.... For these past few months due to unrelated and overly stupid reason, I've been delayed. All my fault, the blame is on me.... Having trouble getting pass a line, it hinders everything in me.. It leaves me drained, stressed, tired and couldn't concentrate. I daydream a lot, lost in my quicksand of thoughts, I spent a lot of time hoping.. Hoping that everything will still go back to everything that was once been.. and then it smacked me in the head bigtime.. I'm losing my grasp on reality...

Although it may seem strange to me, just realizing it when everything goes awry and falling into different places, it's like a scythe in my neck.. I felt fear, fear of what I would become if I allow myself to be in such a situation. A situation that I'm pretty much sure I'm not the first one, and will not be the last one.

I need concentration, a lot of them, to completely be engulfed with my works, to finished everything and hope to get a lot more of them.. I'm glad I have this chance. So please, Oh Heaven don't let me F#@ked up for some stupid reason that shouldn't have deserved the time it was given in the first place....

Being laughed at...

"It is much better to be laughed at doing the things you love than be praised for doing

the things you dont care about..."

Recently I posted this saying in my Facebook (View my FB account) wall, having created this saying myself hopefully without any plagiarism whatsoever... I've been thinking that maybe just maybe I've been doing it all wrong all these times. Isn't it funny that people would laugh at other people who they think are not in the same brain wavelength as them. A lot of people think and act as if those people who are in disagreement and in contradiction to what they believed in are entirely on fault or wrong. Maybe that is why this world is in total chaos because I believe this is the greatest mistake of human beings.

No matter in what field of argument we have, whether it is in education, politics, warfare or religion, we don't respect the opinion of others nor accept in its entirety their philosophy and we tend to believe in our principle and stick to it until the end. This kind of thinking is good, as long as we don't force others to be in conjunction of what we believe in.

A long time ago, I stated the 3 things that would make a man contented and truly happy of his life:

• Doing what you love
• Loving what you do
• Loving the person you truly love

Others may insult, ridicule or make fun of you, but to think that if you are doing the things you love, then to hell with them. At the end of the day, it is you who will have the smile on your face and not them.

Being laughed while doing what you love is great, it means two things, you are gaining attention and people envy you. Live your life as you want it, don't let other people force their way of living unto you... Even if society judges you, you will always be the person that you see in the mirror every single day. People could destroy you reputation but never your character....

My Favorite Song

Austin
Blake Shelton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bb1DTsxBOfE

She left without leavin' a number
Said she needed to clear her mind
He figured she'd gone back to Austin
'Cause she talked about it all the time
It was almost a year before she called him up
Three rings and an answering machine is what she got

If you're callin' 'bout the car I sold it
If this is Tuesday night I'm bowling
If you've got somethin' to sell, you're wastin' your time, I'm not buyin'
If it's anybody else, wait for the tone,
You know what to do
And P.S. if this is Austin, I still love you

The telephone fell to the counter
She heard but she couldn't believe
What kind of man would hang on that long
What kind of love that must be
She waited three days, and then she tried again
She didn't know what she'd say,
But she heard three rings and then

If it's Friday night I'm at the ballgame
And first thing Saturday, if it don't rain
I'm headed out to the lake
And I'll be gone, all weekend long
But I'll call you back when I get home
On Sunday afternoon
And P.S. If this is Austin, I still love you

Well, this time she left her number
But not another word
Then she waited by the phone on Sunday evenin'
And this is what he heard

If you're callin' 'bout my heart
It's still yours
I should've listened to it a little more
Then it wouldn't have taken me so long to know where I belong
And by the way, boy, this is no machine you're talkin' to
Can't you tell, this is Austin, and I still love you

I still love you

My Life...

This is really a wild experience for me this year.. 2011...

I resigned from a great job to land into better jobs. I've been looking forward into combining working in the industry and working in the academe, and good for me I'm in both now... Going back to the academe is a great boost for myself... Teaching will always be a part of me, no questions asked... I love developing young IT guys and gals into becoming full-pledged programmers and web developers, it's a heart warming experience...

And working home-based for an online client is really a different experience.. It;s really great to feel that I've landed on jobs that I was just dreaming a long time ago... Practicing what you preach and preaching what you practice, I guess this is my life...

Although the setbacks are: lesser time to enjoy life, gaining weight and beer-belly and cramming on other projects that's pending and delayed.. and of course the stressful feeling of lack of sleep and overworked body, and the worst the laziness on the job at hand... are just pretty common on this. But what's in life if without the struggles and hardships.. It's like every moment is worth living... It feels like Im completely living everyday of my life without the waste of over sleeping and idle minds.. After we die, we will have all the time sleeping.. So why waste it on sleeping..

I want a simple life... Nothing fancy... Doing what I love... Loving what I do.... Making the world a better place one student and one website at a time.. lmao.

Now Im looking forward on saving some of my salary for future spending ... In 5 months time I will be 26... getting old and unhealthy ... and still having a lot of unreached dreams ... Need to double time ...

Independence Day

The responsibility of a country is not in the hands of a privileged few. We are strong, and we are free from tyranny as long as each one of us remembers his or her duty as a citizen. Whether it's to report a pothole at the top of your street or lies in a State of the Union address, speak out! Ask those questions. Demand that truth. Democracy is not a free ride, man. I'm here to tell you. But, this is where we live. And if we do our job, this is where our children will live.

- Fair Game (Sean Penn)

Starting another Chapter

10 Secrets to Success

What is it that makes people successful and I mean really successful compared to you or me? Are they smarter or do they work harder? Are they risk takers or have powerful and influential friends?

1. How You Think is Everything.

2. Decide upon Your True Dreams and Goals

3. Take Action.

4. Never Stop Learning:

5. Be Persistent and Work Hard

6. Learn to Analyze Details

7. Focus Your Time And Money

8. Don’t Be Afraid To Innovate

9. Deal And Communicate With People Effectively

10. Be Honest And Dependable

Work Ethics

A long time ago, when I was still learning how to create programs, my zeal was overwhelming. My desire to learn was so massive that I even scare myself. The chance of learning something new and far greater is the most appealing thing in a learning mind. After I learned all the basics, and become an intermediate programmer, all my zeal and gusto just disappear.

How can I regain all those lost zeal? How can I become the same person that was eager to learn and try all the codes in the books. Now that my source of income and probably of my future family is programming and web development, how can I be so dumb of losing the zeal.

I dont need reasons, I need actions. To wake me up. To tell me that I need to work my a$$ off. It is just so frustrating that as time goes by, lots and lots of projects and codes becomes more and more delayed . I know from experience that it sucks but I guess I need a kick in the bottom to wake me up..

I'm currently jobless, hoping it will end soon. Time is passing by, and at the age of 25, my life is beginning to slip away from my grasps. Oh, how I hate it.. Oh how I hate it....

The Reason for Motivation

As I'm looking for that reason for my motivation, I was kinda surprised to see that I don't have any logical reason that keeps me motivated for my improved actions. It's like I am always looking for reasons, that would justify my actions. An escape route for those who falter in their principles..

I have not written in this little blog of mine for a very long time. I guess moving on is really hard to do. But right at this moment, I guess I've accomplished what other people had failed to do, I thought I couldn't never do it, I move on. Moving forward will only be the direction that I will be going.

Finally, with all regrets and pains, it is the thing of the past. The promise to be the pillar of her success was accomplished. The rough stone turned into a priceless diamond..... I guess I now understand the feeling of the goblins and their ill-will attitude to the wand-bearers. Just like the sword of Gryffindor, full of rubies and only the courageous could hold and use, I'm not worthy for that sword.

2011 is a great and interesting year. I ended a relationship, will quit my job, venture into another field and most likely, become someone that I'm trying to become. I will give you the details for these things in the near future.

Start from small money (Bo Sanchez)

Do You Want Big Money?

Start With Small Money

Early last year, I taught my maids to invest in the Stock Market. They started by saving P2000 a month.

A few friends laughed at me. Someone asked me, “What can happen with their P2000 a month? That’s so small.”

But that’s why people remain poor. They don’t see the big money in the small money.

Today, one of my maids has P72,286 in her Stock Market account. The other one has P88,069 in her account. These amounts may mean nothing to you, but to them, they feel very rich.

They started with a small amount. Just P2000 a month. But when they discovered how investing worked, they were hooked. So when I gave them a raise or gave them a bonus, they didn’t spend it. They invested it.

Here’s my fearless forecast: I have no doubt that in less than 10 years, my maids will be millionaires.

Huwag mo smallin ang maliit na blessing. Lalaki rin yan!

My point? Unless you see the big blessings in the small blessings, you’ll never receive the big blessings. Because every small blessing has a big blessing waiting to come out.

29 things to do to have a great life (Bo Sanchez)

My message today: The keys to success are simple. I believe that real genius lies in sticking to the simple.

Today, I’d like to “spoon feed” you.

I’d like to give you 29 simple things that you can do this year that will revolutionize your life.

If you do these 29 simple things, 2011 will be a blast.

1. Laugh with inspiring friends at least once a week or more

2. Have Mentors in the most important areas of your life

3. Walk 30 minutes a day

4. Use your talents for God by serving in a ministry

5. Invest 20% of your income every month

6. Read one inspiring book a month

7. Cut TV watching to the barest minimum (Zero is a good number)

8. Limit newspaper reading to 5 minutes or less a day

9. Take vacations often

10. Eat fruits for breakfast

11. Always have a salad for lunch and dinner

12. Start a business (or improve your business) this year

13. Always be grateful to God and others

14. Always live by your deepest values

15. Spend time with God everyday

16. Play with your kids at least once a day (If you don’t have any, borrow.)

17. Have a weekly date with your spouse (If you don’t have any, don’t borrow!)

18. Date your parents regularly

19. Before you sleep, remove all anger by forgiveness

20. Be the kindest person you can be

21. Find your passion and live it fully

22. Give more hugs (and receive as many)

23. Listen to understand, not to reply

24. Celebrate more often

25. Put people over projects

26. Enjoy quiet and solitude

27. Always give 10% of your income to God

28. Keep dreaming

Self-worth

I now truly understand the meaning of sacrificing a lot for other people especially a special one that is. But the time has come to give more time to myself now. I've been giving my time, my efforts and even my sleep for others that I deprived myself to it. After a couple of years, regrettably, I want to turn back the time and bring those wasted moments back.

Loving others is difficult if we truly look at it at love's point of view. I guess the secret to it is to love oneself in order to learn how to love somebody else. If we give ourselves gifts, the time, the efforts, the financial stability slowly we will realize that we are ready to share it to someone and during that time, then we could say we will love rightfully.

Self worth is understanding yourself, finding your own weaknesses and strengths, realizing your true value and giving your self the chance to become the best that you can be. Writing about this column, I remembered the move "One More Chance" by John Lloyd and Bea, one of the most beautiful love story of all time in the Philippine cinema. The film showed how Bea's character left her BF for 5 years to rediscover herself and become what she wanted to be, I guess I understand her character more. When she reach the stage wherein she is her best, then she could love someone more and be happy with it.

This time, as selfish at may sound, this is the time that I will love myself and learn to become someone that I really want to be when I was a little younger. I guess in that way when someone would come in to my life to share it with, then I would be ready to offer my best.

As I said a long time ago, success is worthless if you don't have someone to share it to. :)

Responsibility

RESPONSIBILITY: the quality or state of being responsible: as

a : moral, legal, or mental accountability

b : reliability, trustworthiness

Every man is responsible for his actions. What we do will always result to situations whether in our liking or not. That is one of the greatest trait of human and the reason of our survivability, we ADAPT to the changes in our surroundings.

That is why we need to plan our every actions. Give a little more thinking time, rethink if possible, analyze, plan out. it may result to everyone as a boring life but it works. Being responsible and wise is the man that I want to be. I may not be as smart as anybody else but at least I know what to do. There will be a time in your life where you will be put in a danger zone, in a quicksand where getting up is difficult or nearly impossible but you will not stop struggling, because when you do, then that is time you will lose. I heard that from some golf movie.

Great power comes great responsibility.

Do great things to small tasks and expect grander things for much bigger tasks!

Changing of the Era

What happens when you try to change the current era to a new one? What are the factors that will greatly influence the transition. Being on a transition is really difficult, you don't know where to begin, you don't know what to do, what to give up, what to fight off.

There are signs running around you, clearly telling you that the time has come. Even the people that surrounds you, friends, families and even acquaintances; they seem to tell to move on with your life.

In your past there were great lessons learned, trials overcame and some eventually failed. It is just that we don't have the control of everything. We will never understand it, but we are greatly limited in our capacity to control all the factors in our lives especially those that are significant.

Maybe that is just partly the human side of us. We may never overcome the past but certainly we will just tend to let go of it and move on for the future. Change the era as they say, but why is it difficult?

Maybe the problem is that we force our eyes to see what we like to see, force our ears to hear what we really wants to hear and force our hearts to feel what it really want to feel and force our mind to bend reality and to follow what we think is right.

In this ever changing world wherein everything will change, it is up to us to adapt to the changes. It's difficult, really.. Really difficult,but as an important person told me tonight, if that is what is happening what can I do?

I guess I just need to harden myself, kick my conscience and do what I think is fair and justifiable. We may never forget the past, at least we have the present to attend to and a future to work hard for. Life is full of mysteries, adventures and more amazing journeys ahead. Some people may leave you to continue with their own journeys, and well, you, you have a life to think about. You have a journey to continue. People may come and go, but the only thing we could do is to treasure those who remain. For those who remain are your blessings and those who left are great memories.

In moving on to the new journey, we must be strong-willed. Live on.. Plan ahead.. Become what we want to be and be the person that will define you in the future. And once the time has come to look back at your memories, just look around you and be thankful for those who remained.

~ Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear. ~

A week after

Finally, after 2 weeks of hectic coding.. I got a little breathing space.. I am trying to recuperate my energy for another bout of mind brainstorming... I wish I'm a little smarter.. But I could manage with this now..If we look into it right now, we may have the idea of how things should happen with me.

I wish I will be paid with my previous works, Im planning to buy myself a refrigerator, or maybe a cute scooter.. I'm still not sure, but any other way would still be good.. It's Saturday night here people are milling themselves with going out and having party. I would settle for a lonely evening sitting in my desk and playing with my imaginations. I guess that's the limits of my social interaction but then again, that's not what I want a life of being one of those socialites who would bang heads and drink till wee hours.

I will try my hardest to have a great 2011. I will make my every waking hour a multiple steps to reach the top of my stairway of heaven. I'm 25 and Im still far far away from what I want. I can do this.. I just to update myself with what I'm looking for and what I need to do.

There are problems in my life, I know. Those are trials, they just keep on popping like mushrooms, but if I can't overcome this? How can I overcome problems in the future.

Right eh?

6th day of the Year

As it slowly dawned on the days that past by, I look at it with every little interest.. My life is changing bit by bit. Getting better as the days past by, trying to slowly mend the broken glasses that once were splattered on the floor since the grand departure.

There I have it, looking at me straight in the eyes and telling me that reality sometimes in most incomprehensible than most fantasies. My career will start to slowly climb up the plane..

All I want is to really start a newer page, a newer chapter. With the people who really want to come and stay in this new chapter. Time to disregard those who choose to go and depart me, and change with someone who are there with you by your side.

Friends come and go.... but those who stay are those who are really crazy but they must be keep forever... Not just in the memory.

First day at Work for 2011

Starting my first day of work. And having a big task at hand with 7 days to finish. Im starting to do a little extra right now. Trying to look for the API of these address book problems I had.. And time is running out on me..

Trying to look on the core code of the API so that I could had an idea of getting all what I need ... :)

Just heard it a while ago, after every failure, there is success. So brace yourselves... :)

Great, one single step for me, one giant leap for humanity.....

Now on to more of mind boggling searching and trial and errors... Man, with limited intelligence such as mine... I need to kill it with hard work. Sometimes I hate it when I couldn't solve the problem in one sitting.

Start of 2011

Another year will start and I haven’t got a clue still of what I want to do with this new year.. Im thinking of going abroad this year, process my papers and work in Canada , UK or in any other countries that will give me the opportunity. My first day of the 2011 was one hell of sickness day. I got a terrible headache, flu, stomach cramps and LBM. Currently I am still experiencing all of these.
I just sat here in my apartment reading codes and taking meds and doing some practice tweaking. I wish Im home right now so that somebody can take care of me.
Tomorrow will be work day, it will be hectic. With a large scale task waiting for me and some program on queue, I will have one helluva January…

God bless me…
Just brought some workout tools in Lopue’s East. I’ve been looking forward to this purchased, this could be the start of the new consciousness for my health and body stature that recently got out of hand. If only I had a good health I could start working out.
It’s a lonely rainy afternoon; I got cold and shivering… It’s so boring without internet at home.. Currently working on a payroll details problem which been haunting me for a couple of weeks. Hopefully to finish it in a couple of hours.
Progressing on the payroll details but not yet done.  .. Having trouble with payment of adjustments.
Finally moving on the next step.. But my eyes are getting blurry now, I will just hold on for a couple of hours.. Have a work tomorrow.. Planning on sleeping for 6 hours tonight. That would be good unless laziness takes over and kill me off my feet. (I wish IM not doing one of take-up-a-lot-of-time fancy things!)
I still have one hour left before midnight, and I’m freaking out! Dr Watson PostMortem? Wadahelisdat?

Payroll System...

Damn, payroll system is so so sick!!! lol... A lot of tiny little things that needs tinkering... It's so sick...But Im loving it..

F@#ked Up Life

Seems like Im having another misfitz again ... :) Im fuck!ng up my life to another extent... Ive been doing it knowingly which is plainly stupid ... :)