2011-05-30

Work Ethics

A long time ago, when I was still learning how to create programs, my zeal was overwhelming. My desire to learn was so massive that I even scare myself. The chance of learning something new and far greater is the most appealing thing in a learning mind. After I learned all the basics, and become an intermediate programmer, all my zeal and gusto just disappear.

How can I regain all those lost zeal? How can I become the same person that was eager to learn and try all the codes in the books. Now that my source of income and probably of my future family is programming and web development, how can I be so dumb of losing the zeal.

I dont need reasons, I need actions. To wake me up. To tell me that I need to work my a$$ off. It is just so frustrating that as time goes by, lots and lots of projects and codes becomes more and more delayed . I know from experience that it sucks but I guess I need a kick in the bottom to wake me up..

I'm currently jobless, hoping it will end soon. Time is passing by, and at the age of 25, my life is beginning to slip away from my grasps. Oh, how I hate it.. Oh how I hate it....

2011-05-01

The Reason for Motivation

As I'm looking for that reason for my motivation, I was kinda surprised to see that I don't have any logical reason that keeps me motivated for my improved actions. It's like I am always looking for reasons, that would justify my actions. An escape route for those who falter in their principles..

I have not written in this little blog of mine for a very long time. I guess moving on is really hard to do. But right at this moment, I guess I've accomplished what other people had failed to do, I thought I couldn't never do it, I move on. Moving forward will only be the direction that I will be going.

Finally, with all regrets and pains, it is the thing of the past. The promise to be the pillar of her success was accomplished. The rough stone turned into a priceless diamond..... I guess I now understand the feeling of the goblins and their ill-will attitude to the wand-bearers. Just like the sword of Gryffindor, full of rubies and only the courageous could hold and use, I'm not worthy for that sword.

2011 is a great and interesting year. I ended a relationship, will quit my job, venture into another field and most likely, become someone that I'm trying to become. I will give you the details for these things in the near future.

2011-02-08

Start from small money (Bo Sanchez)

Do You Want Big Money?

Start With Small Money

Early last year, I taught my maids to invest in the Stock Market. They started by saving P2000 a month.

A few friends laughed at me. Someone asked me, “What can happen with their P2000 a month? That’s so small.”

But that’s why people remain poor. They don’t see the big money in the small money.

Today, one of my maids has P72,286 in her Stock Market account. The other one has P88,069 in her account. These amounts may mean nothing to you, but to them, they feel very rich.

They started with a small amount. Just P2000 a month. But when they discovered how investing worked, they were hooked. So when I gave them a raise or gave them a bonus, they didn’t spend it. They invested it.

Here’s my fearless forecast: I have no doubt that in less than 10 years, my maids will be millionaires.

Huwag mo smallin ang maliit na blessing. Lalaki rin yan!

My point? Unless you see the big blessings in the small blessings, you’ll never receive the big blessings. Because every small blessing has a big blessing waiting to come out.


2011-01-31

29 things to do to have a great life (Bo Sanchez)

My message today: The keys to success are simple. I believe that real genius lies in sticking to the simple.

Today, I’d like to “spoon feed” you.

I’d like to give you 29 simple things that you can do this year that will revolutionize your life.

If you do these 29 simple things, 2011 will be a blast.

1. Laugh with inspiring friends at least once a week or more

2. Have Mentors in the most important areas of your life

3. Walk 30 minutes a day

4. Use your talents for God by serving in a ministry

5. Invest 20% of your income every month

6. Read one inspiring book a month

7. Cut TV watching to the barest minimum (Zero is a good number)

8. Limit newspaper reading to 5 minutes or less a day

9. Take vacations often

10. Eat fruits for breakfast

11. Always have a salad for lunch and dinner

12. Start a business (or improve your business) this year

13. Always be grateful to God and others

14. Always live by your deepest values

15. Spend time with God everyday

16. Play with your kids at least once a day (If you don’t have any, borrow.)

17. Have a weekly date with your spouse (If you don’t have any, don’t borrow!)

18. Date your parents regularly

19. Before you sleep, remove all anger by forgiveness

20. Be the kindest person you can be

21. Find your passion and live it fully

22. Give more hugs (and receive as many)

23. Listen to understand, not to reply

24. Celebrate more often

25. Put people over projects

26. Enjoy quiet and solitude

27. Always give 10% of your income to God

28. Keep dreaming

2011-01-25

Self-worth

I now truly understand the meaning of sacrificing a lot for other people especially a special one that is. But the time has come to give more time to myself now. I've been giving my time, my efforts and even my sleep for others that I deprived myself to it. After a couple of years, regrettably, I want to turn back the time and bring those wasted moments back.

Loving others is difficult if we truly look at it at love's point of view. I guess the secret to it is to love oneself in order to learn how to love somebody else. If we give ourselves gifts, the time, the efforts, the financial stability slowly we will realize that we are ready to share it to someone and during that time, then we could say we will love rightfully.

Self worth is understanding yourself, finding your own weaknesses and strengths, realizing your true value and giving your self the chance to become the best that you can be. Writing about this column, I remembered the move "One More Chance" by John Lloyd and Bea, one of the most beautiful love story of all time in the Philippine cinema. The film showed how Bea's character left her BF for 5 years to rediscover herself and become what she wanted to be, I guess I understand her character more. When she reach the stage wherein she is her best, then she could love someone more and be happy with it.

This time, as selfish at may sound, this is the time that I will love myself and learn to become someone that I really want to be when I was a little younger. I guess in that way when someone would come in to my life to share it with, then I would be ready to offer my best.

As I said a long time ago, success is worthless if you don't have someone to share it to. :)

2011-01-21

Responsibility

RESPONSIBILITY: the quality or state of being responsible: as
a : moral, legal, or mental accountability

Every man is responsible for his actions. What we do will always result to situations whether in our liking or not. That is one of the greatest trait of human and the reason of our survivability, we ADAPT to the changes in our surroundings.

That is why we need to plan our every actions. Give a little more thinking time, rethink if possible, analyze, plan out. it may result to everyone as a boring life but it works. Being responsible and wise is the man that I want to be. I may not be as smart as anybody else but at least I know what to do. There will be a time in your life where you will be put in a danger zone, in a quicksand where getting up is difficult or nearly impossible but you will not stop struggling, because when you do, then that is time you will lose. I heard that from some golf movie.

Great power comes great responsibility.

Do great things to small tasks and expect grander things for much bigger tasks!


2011-01-17

Changing of the Era

What happens when you try to change the current era to a new one? What are the factors that will greatly influence the transition. Being on a transition is really difficult, you don't know where to begin, you don't know what to do, what to give up, what to fight off.

There are signs running around you, clearly telling you that the time has come. Even the people that surrounds you, friends, families and even acquaintances; they seem to tell to move on with your life.

In your past there were great lessons learned, trials overcame and some eventually failed. It is just that we don't have the control of everything. We will never understand it, but we are greatly limited in our capacity to control all the factors in our lives especially those that are significant.

Maybe that is just partly the human side of us. We may never overcome the past but certainly we will just tend to let go of it and move on for the future. Change the era as they say, but why is it difficult?

Maybe the problem is that we force our eyes to see what we like to see, force our ears to hear what we really wants to hear and force our hearts to feel what it really want to feel and force our mind to bend reality and to follow what we think is right.

In this ever changing world wherein everything will change, it is up to us to adapt to the changes. It's difficult, really.. Really difficult,but as an important person told me tonight, if that is what is happening what can I do?

I guess I just need to harden myself, kick my conscience and do what I think is fair and justifiable. We may never forget the past, at least we have the present to attend to and a future to work hard for. Life is full of mysteries, adventures and more amazing journeys ahead. Some people may leave you to continue with their own journeys, and well, you, you have a life to think about. You have a journey to continue. People may come and go, but the only thing we could do is to treasure those who remain. For those who remain are your blessings and those who left are great memories.

In moving on to the new journey, we must be strong-willed. Live on.. Plan ahead.. Become what we want to be and be the person that will define you in the future. And once the time has come to look back at your memories, just look around you and be thankful for those who remained.


~ Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear. ~

2011-01-08

A week after

Finally, after 2 weeks of hectic coding.. I got a little breathing space.. I am trying to recuperate my energy for another bout of mind brainstorming... I wish I'm a little smarter.. But I could manage with this now..If we look into it right now, we may have the idea of how things should happen with me.

I wish I will be paid with my previous works, Im planning to buy myself a refrigerator, or maybe a cute scooter.. I'm still not sure, but any other way would still be good.. It's Saturday night here people are milling themselves with going out and having party. I would settle for a lonely evening sitting in my desk and playing with my imaginations. I guess that's the limits of my social interaction but then again, that's not what I want a life of being one of those socialites who would bang heads and drink till wee hours.

I will try my hardest to have a great 2011. I will make my every waking hour a multiple steps to reach the top of my stairway of heaven. I'm 25 and Im still far far away from what I want. I can do this.. I just to update myself with what I'm looking for and what I need to do.

There are problems in my life, I know. Those are trials, they just keep on popping like mushrooms, but if I can't overcome this? How can I overcome problems in the future.

Right eh?

2011-01-06

6th day of the Year

As it slowly dawned on the days that past by, I look at it with every little interest.. My life is changing bit by bit. Getting better as the days past by, trying to slowly mend the broken glasses that once were splattered on the floor since the grand departure.

There I have it, looking at me straight in the eyes and telling me that reality sometimes in most incomprehensible than most fantasies. My career will start to slowly climb up the plane..

All I want is to really start a newer page, a newer chapter. With the people who really want to come and stay in this new chapter. Time to disregard those who choose to go and depart me, and change with someone who are there with you by your side.

Friends come and go.... but those who stay are those who are really crazy but they must be keep forever... Not just in the memory.

2011-01-03

First day at Work for 2011

Starting my first day of work. And having a big task at hand with 7 days to finish. Im starting to do a little extra right now. Trying to look for the API of these address book problems I had.. And time is running out on me..

Trying to look on the core code of the API so that I could had an idea of getting all what I need ... :)

Just heard it a while ago, after every failure, there is success. So brace yourselves... :)

Great, one single step for me, one giant leap for humanity.....

Now on to more of mind boggling searching and trial and errors... Man, with limited intelligence such as mine... I need to kill it with hard work. Sometimes I hate it when I couldn't solve the problem in one sitting.

Start of 2011

Another year will start and I haven’t got a clue still of what I want to do with this new year.. Im thinking of going abroad this year, process my papers and work in Canada , UK or in any other countries that will give me the opportunity. My first day of the 2011 was one hell of sickness day. I got a terrible headache, flu, stomach cramps and LBM. Currently I am still experiencing all of these.
I just sat here in my apartment reading codes and taking meds and doing some practice tweaking. I wish Im home right now so that somebody can take care of me.
Tomorrow will be work day, it will be hectic. With a large scale task waiting for me and some program on queue, I will have one helluva January…

God bless me…
Just brought some workout tools in Lopue’s East. I’ve been looking forward to this purchased, this could be the start of the new consciousness for my health and body stature that recently got out of hand. If only I had a good health I could start working out.
It’s a lonely rainy afternoon; I got cold and shivering… It’s so boring without internet at home.. Currently working on a payroll details problem which been haunting me for a couple of weeks. Hopefully to finish it in a couple of hours.
Progressing on the payroll details but not yet done.  .. Having trouble with payment of adjustments.
Finally moving on the next step.. But my eyes are getting blurry now, I will just hold on for a couple of hours.. Have a work tomorrow.. Planning on sleeping for 6 hours tonight. That would be good unless laziness takes over and kill me off my feet. (I wish IM not doing one of take-up-a-lot-of-time fancy things!)
I still have one hour left before midnight, and I’m freaking out! Dr Watson PostMortem? Wadahelisdat?

2010-12-13

Payroll System...

Damn, payroll system is so so sick!!! lol... A lot of tiny little things that needs tinkering... It's so sick...But Im loving it..

2010-12-12

F@#ked Up Life

Seems like Im having another misfitz again ... :) Im fuck!ng up my life to another extent... Ive been doing it knowingly which is plainly stupid ... :)

2010-11-25

New Way

It seems like the time has arrived to have a real new chapter in life...

In a month or so I will be 25 and not getting any younger .. Still young but a little too late... There are advantages when your birtday falls in the last month, it tells you that another year has pass and a new one will soon come.

There are a lot of things that I want to do in the coming year. The past year was a melodramatic charade of bullshits. It has always been. It's been wrong when you tend to give more that what should have been given. But lessons learned and a new straight road has arise.

A year ago, I was still new to the company, a newbie who doesn't know sh!t. But after a year, and working on CMSs I had become somebody who I want to become. There were a lot of opportunities missed and given up. A lot of time and money wasted on uneventful and not fruitful endeavors.

So this coming year, I want to become somebody that matters, and not just somebody who you will go to because you need me. Time flies and hopefully 2011 will become a prosperous year for me and my family. There are a lot of possibilities that will happen, I still could die any given day but still Im want to live it to its fullest.

My dream was to create a niche in my industry, to become a top programmer, a top designer (I wish) ,to become a backbone of certain CMSs. The years is thinning, as so my hairline but time is of the essence. If I need to give a push the time would be now.. Many people will be please , many people will despise me. Many will be mad, many would admire, but a the end of the day, it is what you have done that defines you...

2010-11-22

Imagine what can I do if I do what I can

Imagine what can I do if I do what I can...

This single quote is currently giving me false hopes or is it?

2010-11-05

The Omega

Finally... Seems like the two years spent with you was long and short at the same time... Seems like we are really not meant for each other.. Glad that I met and spent my time .. Now Im back where I came from, alone but a stronger man... It is really a pleasure.. :)... And its been great... Maybe we end nothing much of a happy ending but the lessons and memories will be forever treasure... Although the world may never know, it will always be fun.. I will miss having you in my life and by my side.. I will miss the late night works, the rush, the cramming....

But as time goes by, we may see the world in someone's else arms.. I wish you the best.. And Im sad that I can't be a part of of the realization of your dreams, but I'm glad I was with you in the journey...

2010-09-14

Decisions that matter

Just what really happens?

Its been noticeable, my absence in blogging that is. Long time ago I write all the things that comes up in my mind.. Such petty things that brought joy, happiness, sadness and all the emotions that I felt and pretended I felt. Writing I guess will never depart me.

I guess I F$#ked up my life right now. Seems everything I've been doing had never been why I'd dreamed a long time ago when I still daydream and look at the skies and trying to figure out where my life is leading me. My life has been a result of simultaneous and sequential mistakes that I made, opportunities I lost and chances I missed . No blaming but on me. I was glad I'm in a job I've been wanting for so long yet I still don't give my everything into it. I sometimes lose interest and even cuddled up during the entire development of any project.

Ive been affected by things that continue to haunt me even in the twilight of my sleep. Long time ago I thought being in a relationship would boost me up and give the kick that I;ve been looking but after a couple of years or a lot of months, seems its like the other way around. Maybe you would call me a dramatic fool, but it's true. I don't know where I went wrong. Its just that maybe not all the time, you will get what you have been wanting.

Being in a relationship is really a rollercoaster ride so to speak. There are curves, dives, sudden turns and even 360 degrees flips that could make the relationship stormy but that what makes it flavorful. I thought being liberated and entering in a non-committal relationship would be fun, exciting and adventurous which were all true but it seems it will always be like that.. You will just wait for any of you to throw in the towels and say "I'ts been fun, but I need to go".

In days to come, my life would be depending on the situations to come. I don't know what will happen but for sure these coming moments will greatly define another bookmark in my written life.. Its time to make decisions, decisions that will give you the peace of mind, decisions that will give you contentment and security, decisions that will change the course of your life, decisions that matter....

2010-07-15

Burnout

Burnout is a psychological term for the experience of long-term exhaustion and diminished interest.

These past few months, I experienced one of the worst burn out in my life. I did a little research on burn out and found out that I am currently showing severe symptoms of burnout... Although, not yet considered a medical disease but the emotional and psychological exhaustions cause so much strain on me that it keeps pulling me down. I'm currently researching the steps in coping up or overcoming the stress and strains of my current exhaustion.

I hope I can change my current attitude and revive myself from my current slumber.

My weapon,

2010-06-10

2010-04-21

Willie of Fortune - Q & A

These are questions and actual answers of contest participants!


1. Q: "Ano sa Tagalog ang teeth?" A: "Utong!"

2. Q: "Kung ang light ay ilaw, ano naman ang lightning?" A: "Umiilaw!"

3. Q: "Kung vegetarian ang tawag sa kumakain ng gulay, ano ang tawag sa kumakain ng tao? A: "Humanitarian?"

4. Q: "Sina Michael at Raphael ay mga." A: "Ninja?"

5. Q: "Ano ang karaniwang kasunod ng kidlat?" A: "Sunog!"

6. Q: "Magbigay ng sikat na Willie." A: "Willie da pooh!"

7. Q: "Ang mga Hindu ay galing sa aling bansa?" A: "Hindunesia?"

8. Q: "Anong hayop si King Kong?" A: "Pagong!"

9. Q: "Magbigay ng mabahong pagkain." A: "Tae!"

10. Q: "Saang bansa matatagpuan ang mga Canadians?" A: "Canadia!"

11. Q: "Kumpletuhin - Little Red." A: "Ribbon!"

12 Q: "Ano ang tinatanggal sa itlog bago ito kainin?" A: "Buhok?"

13. Q: "Magbigay ng pagkain na dumidikit sa ngipin." A: "Tinga!"

14. Q: "Anong oras kadalasang pinapatay ang TV?" A: "Pag balita?"

15. Q: "Ano ang tawag mo sa anak ng taong grasa?" A: "Baby oil?"

16. Q: "Saan karaniwang ginagawa ang mga sweets na ginagamit sa halu-halo?" A: "Sweetserland?"

17. Q: "Sinong higanteng G ang tinalo ni David ?" A: "Godzilla?"

18. Q: "Ano ang mas malaki, itlog ng ibon o sanggol ng tao?" A: "Itlog ng tao!"

19. Q: "Anong S ang tawag sa duktor nag nago-opera?" A: "Sadista?"

20. Q: "Blank is the best policy." A: "Ice tea?"

22. Q: "Saan binaril si Jose Rizal?" A: "Sa likod!"

23. Q: "Fill in the blanks - Beauty is in the eye of the ____." A: "Tiger?"

24. Q: "Ano ang kinakain ng monkey-eating eagle?" A: "Saging!"

25. Q: "Kung ang suka ay vinegar, ano naman ang Inggles ng toyo?" A: "Baliw!"

26. Q: "Anong tawag mo sa kapatid ng nanay mo?" A: "Kamag-anak!"

27. Q: "Saan nakukuha ang sakit na AIDS?" A: "Sa motel?"

28. Q: "Kung ang H2O ay water, ano naman ang CO2?" A: "Cold water!"

29. Q: "Sinong cartoon charcater ang sumisigaw ng yabba dabba doo?" A: "Si scooby dooby doo?"

30. Q: "Heto na si kaka, bubuka-bukaka." A: "Operadang bakla?"

31. Q: "Ilan ang bituin sa American flag?" A: "Madami!"

32. Q: "Ano ang tawag mo sa taong isa lang ang mata?" A: "Abnormal!"