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Healthy and Wealthy

2012-01-05T00:35:00.002+08:00

For this year 2012..

I'm planning to get out of my comfort zone and thoroughly work hard for the betterment of the life of my family.

I just wish that 2012 will be a wealthy and healthy year for me and my family...

Top Ten Reasons Why Men Prefer Guns Over Women

2011-12-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

And here we go...

#10 - You can trade an old 44 for a new 22.
#9 - You can keep one gun at home and have another for when you're on the road.
#8 - If you admire a friend's gun and tell him so, he will probably let you try it out a few times.
#7- Your primary gun doesn't mind if you keep another gun for a backup.
#6- Your gun will stay with you even if you run out of ammo.
#5 - A gun doesn't take up a lot of closet space.
#4 - Guns function normally every day of the month.
#3 - A gun doesn't ask , "Do these new grips make me look fat?"
#2 - A gun doesn't mind if you go to sleep after you use it.
And the Number One reason Why Men Prefer Guns over women....
#1 -You can buy a silencer for a gun!

Operation: Online Shopping

2011-11-23T02:23:00.003+08:00

My first of the many...

Exciting... just wait fora little more time...

Second Semester

2011-11-08T12:02:00.002+08:00

It's official... It is the start of the second semester for the Academic Year 2011 - 2012...

Hope to have a great and fun semester... I am really so excited to teach and impart what little knowledge I have on the eager young minds of this generation... Gotta do a lot more and become a better educator.. :) Share the love and peace out Bokxters!!!

4 G's

2011-11-05T15:53:00.003+08:00

My life currently revolves on the 4 G's

Geeks
Guns
Grades
Gurls!

Geeks - My life will always be referred as a geeky one... Always juggling with the 1's and 0's, playing with codes and algorithms. I can't really imagine my life without programming..

Guns - since my new hobby is Airsoft, most of my Internet surfing time is being used up researching and looking for Airsoft guns. Watching tournaments, viewing tutorials and looking for nice upgrades...

Grades - I went back to being a college professor last semester and Ijust love teaching brilliant young minds.. I wish giving grades is easy with no complicated formulas and deadlines..

and finally Gurls!! - no comment!!

My Sundays Will Never Be The Same Again

2011-10-31T03:13:00.006+08:00

New hobby.. Every available Sundays, we will be playing airsoft together with my brothers-in-arms... After a whole week of working and burning eyebrows, I will keep the Sabbath day "HOLY"...

The Gun "VimVim" (M4 CA)

Prep time before the game

After the Game

Battle Scar - my first major damage from an AK-47

The-Ninja-Turtle look

The comrades

My Life's Mission

2011-10-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways

- Coke in one hand - Snickers in the other -

body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO-HOO, what a ride!!"

My First Movie....

2011-10-02T11:21:00.003+08:00

Girls Room Scene....

Top Ten Lessons From Steve Jobs

2011-09-20T03:23:00.002+08:00

Just read a great post from Eric Jackson.

http://www.forbes.com/sites/ericjackson/2011/09/19/the-top-ten-lessons-steve-jobs-can-teach-us-if-well-listen/

Steve Jobs, one of the great minds of the 21st century and will forever be cherished as one of the world's best CEO... Here are the lessons that Steve Jobs taught us in his active days...

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1. The most enduring innovations marry art and science – Steve has always pointed out that the biggest difference between Apple and all the other computer (and post-PC) companies through history is that Apple always tried to marry art and science. Jobs pointed out the original team working on the Mac had backgrounds in anthropology, art, history, and poetry. That’s always been important in making Apple’s products stand out. It’s the difference between the iPad and every other tablet computer that came before it or since. It is the look and feel of a product. It is its soul. But it is such a difficult thing for computer scientists or engineers to see that importance, so any company must have a leader that sees that importance.

2. To create the future, you can’t do it through focus groups – There is a school of thought in management theory that — if you’re in the consumer-facing space building products and services — you’ve got to listen to your customer. Steve Jobs was one of the first businessmen to say that was a waste of time. The customers today don’t always know what they want, especially if it’s something they’ve never seen, heard, or touched before. When it became clear that Apple would come out with a tablet, many were skeptical. When people heard the name (iPad), it was a joke in the Twitter-sphere for a day. But when people held one, and used it, it became a ‘must have.’ They didn’t know how they’d previously lived without one. It became the fastest growing Apple product in its history. Jobs (and the Apple team) trusted himself more than others. Picasso and great artists have done that for centuries. Jobs was the first in business.

3. Never fear failure – Jobs was fired by the successor he picked. It was one of the most public embarrassments of the last 30 years in business. Yet, he didn’t become a venture capitalist never to be heard from again. He didn’t start a production company and do a lot of lunches. He picked himself up and got back to work following his passion. Eight years ago, he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and told he only had a few weeks to live. As Samuel Johnson said, there’s nothing like your impending death to focus the mind. From Jobs’ 2005 Stanford commencement speech:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

4. You can’t connect the dots forward – only backward – This is another gem from the 2005 Stanford speech. The idea behind the concept is that, as much as we try to plan our lives ahead in advance, there’s always something that’s completely unpredictable about life. What seems like bitter anguish and defeat in the moment — getting dumped by a girlfriend, not getting that job at McKinsey, “wasting” 4 years of your life on a start-up that didn’t pan out as you wanted — can turn out to sow the seeds of your unimaginable success years from now. You can’t be too attached to how you think your life is supposed to work out and instead trust that all the dots will be connected in the future. This is all part of the plan.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

5. Listen to that voice in the back of your head that tells you if you’re on the right track or not – Most of us don’t hear a voice inside our heads. We’ve simply decided that we’re going to work in finance or be a doctor because that’s what our parents told us we should do or because we wanted to make a lot of money. When we consciously or unconsciously make that decision, we snuff out that little voice in our head. From then on, most of us put it on automatic pilot. We mail it in. You have met these people. They’re nice people. But they’re not changing the world. Jobs has always been a restless soul. A man in a hurry. A man with a plan. His plan isn’t for everyone. It was his plan. He wanted to build computers. Some people have a voice that tells them to fight for democracy. Some have one that tells them to become an expert in miniature spoons. When Jobs first saw an example of a Graphical User Interface — a GUI — he knew this was the future of computing and that he had to create it. That became the Macintosh. Whatever your voice is telling you, you would be smart to listen to it. Even if it tells you to quit your job, or move to China, or leave your partner.

6. Expect a lot from yourself and others – We have heard stories of Steve Jobs yelling or dressing down staff. He’s a control freak, we’ve heard – a perfectionist. The bottom line is that he is in touch with his passion and that little voice in the back of his head. He gives a damn. He wants the best from himself and everyone who works for him. If they don’t give a damn, he doesn’t want them around. And yet — he keeps attracting amazing talent around him. Why? Because talent gives a damn too. There’s a saying: if you’re a “B” player, you’ll hire “C” players below you because you don’t want them to look smarter than you. If you’re an “A” player, you’ll hire “A+” players below you, because you want the best result.

7. Don’t care about being right. Care about succeeding – Jobs used this line in an interview after he was fired by Apple. If you have to steal others’ great ideas to make yours better, do it. You can’t be married to your vision of how a product is going to work out, such that you forget about current reality. When the Apple III came out, it was hot and warped its motherboard even though Jobs had insisted it would be quiet and sleek. If Jobs had stuck with Lisa, Apple would have never developed the Mac.

8. Find the most talented people to surround yourself with – There is a misconception that Apple is Steve Jobs. Everyone else in the company is a faceless minion working to please the all-seeing and all-knowing Jobs. In reality, Jobs has surrounded himself with talent: Phil Schiller, Jony Ive, Peter Oppenheimer, Tim Cook, the former head of stores Ron Johnson. These are all super-talented people who don’t get the credit they deserve. The fact that Apple’s stock price has been so strong since Jobs left as CEO is a credit to the strength of the team. Jobs has hired bad managerial talent before. John Sculley ended up firing Jobs and — according to Jobs — almost killing the company. Give credit to Jobs for learning from this mistake and realizing that he can’t do anything without great talent around him.

9. Stay hungry, stay foolish - Again from the end of Jobs’ memorable Stanford speech:

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960′s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

10. Anything is possible through hard work, determination, and a sense of vision – Although he’s the greatest CEO ever and the father of modern computer, at the end of the day, Steve Jobs is just a guy. He’s a husband, a father, a friend — like you and me. We can be just as special as he is — if we learn his lessons and start applying them in our lives. When Jobs returned to Apple in the 1990s, it was was weeks away from bankruptcy. It’s now the biggest company in the world. Anything’s possible in life if you continue to follow the simple lessons laid out above.

Life As We Know It

2011-09-17T23:55:00.001+08:00

As I lie in my bed, I think of all the things that I need to do ... Im excited, yet afraid, terrified, mortified, and stupefied by life!! ♥ ♥

Saving Private Ryan

2011-09-17T23:25:00.004+08:00

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120815/

One reason that we must avoid war at all cost. This is one of the great war movies of all time and is truly excellent, epic and totally a great eye-opener. In times when we look at things in different perspective, watching this movie is just plain awesome..

With a blu-ray copy and a great headset, this movie is a one hell Saturda night treat!

10 tips to go from a beginner to an intermediate developer

2011-09-13T18:19:00.003+08:00

http://www.techrepublic.com/blog/programming-and-development/10-tips-to-go-from-a-beginner-to-an-intermediate-developer/1139

#1: Learn another language

It doesn’t matter which language you learn, but learning another language (regardless of how many you already know) will make you a better developer. Even better is to learn one that is significantly different from what you already use on a regular basis. In other words, if you are a C# developer, learning VB.NET or Java will not help you as much as learning Ruby or Groovy.

And when I say “learn another language,” I mean really learn it. Learning a language consists of three realms of knowledge: the syntax, the built-in operators and libraries, and “how to use it.” The first two are easy; I think that an experienced developer can pick up enough of a language’s syntax to maintain code in 30 minutes to a few hours depending upon the language. The operators and libraries are just a matter of slowly accumulating knowledge and being willing to check reference materials until you memorize what you need to know. But it’s the third item — “how to use it” — that can only be learned over months of working with a language and that’s where the real magic happens. I suggest doing a project that is well suited for that language and doing it in that language’s style.

Truly learn another language, and I promise that your abilities as a developer will start to blossom.

#2: Learn advanced search techniques, tactics, and strategies

More and more, being a good developer is not just about your skill, but your skill at finding information. Simply put, modern languages and development frameworks are too large for most people to remember much of them. As a result, your ability to get work done is often dependent upon your ability to perform research. Unfortunately, knowing how to find accurate, high-quality information is more than just heading to TechRepublic for the answer or typing a few words into your search engine of choice.

“Techniques,” “tactics,” and “strategies” may sound like synonyms, but they are not. The techniques you need to learn are the advanced search systems of your favorite search engine; you need to learn things such as the Boolean operators, how to filter results (negative keywords, domain restrictions, etc.), what role word order plays, and more. So essentially, RTFM.

You should learn tactics such as knowing how to approach any particular search and knowing what you should you actually look for. Errors are easy — just look for the error code — but keyword selection on many searches is much more difficult.

With regard to strategies, you need to learn things such as what search engines to use (hint: general purpose search engines are not always the right answer), which sites to visit before going to a general purpose search engine, and even which message boards to post to for help.

#3: Help others

Teaching others is invariably one of the best ways to learn anything. It is understandable to think that you don’t have much to offer because you are relatively new to the development field. That’s nonsense. Remember, everything you know you learned from someone or somewhere; so try being the someone that another person learns from. Spend a few minutes a day trying to answer the questions on TechRepublic or another site as best you can. You can also learn a lot by reading other members’ answers.

#4: Be patient and keep practicing

Research shows that it takes “about ten years, or ten to twenty thousand hours of deliberate practice” to become an “expert.” That’s a lot of time. Furthermore, becoming an expert does not always mean doing the same task for 10 years; it often means doing a wide variety of tasks within a particular domain for 10 years. It will take a lot of time and energy to become an “expert”; working as a developer for a few years is not enough. Want to become a senior developer in your early 30s? Either start your education/training sooner or be willing to do a lot of work, reading, and practicing in your spare time. I started programming in high school, and I devoted a lot of off-hours to keeping up with the industry, learning new skills, and so on. As a result, I hit the intermediate and senior level developer positions significantly earlier in my career than most of my peers, which translates to an awful lot of money over time.

#5: Leave your dogmas at the door

Time for some brutal honesty: Beginner developers probably don’t know enough to state that there is One Best Way of doing something. It’s fine to respect the opinion of a friend or an authority figure, but until you are more experienced, don’t claim their opinions as your own. The simple fact is, if you don’t know enough to figure these things out on your own, what makes you think that you know which “expert” is right? I know this sounds really harsh, but please believe me; I have met far too many budding developers who had their careers or their growth set back yearsbecause they got hung up on some foolish piece of advice or followed some “expert” who really didn’t know what they were talking about. A great example of this is the abuse of object-oriented architecture. For example, many beginners read some information about OO, and suddenly the class diagrams to their simple applications look like the Eiffel Tower.

#6: Learn a few advanced ideas in-depth

Much of what goes into being an intermediate developer is having a few concepts that you are really good at working with in code. For me, it is multithreading/parallelism, regular expressions, and how to leverage dynamic languages (and the last two are fading as I get farther away from my Perl history). How did this happen? Multithreading and parallel processing came about because I read articles on it, thought it sounded interesting, and figured it out on my own; I keep writing apps that use those techniques. I had a job that used a ton of regular expressions in Perl. Also, I ended up writing my own e-commerce engine with a template processing engine and built-in database system; then I spent nearly two years working on it.

Find something that has you really hooked. It might be image manipulation or maybe database design or whatever. Even if you’re an entry-level developer over all, try to become an expert in at least one area of focus. This will get you into that intermediate level quite quickly, and once there, you will be halfway to expert.

#7: Learn the basic theories underlying your field

It’s one thing to write “Hello World,” but it’s another to understand how the words appear on the screen. By learning the “groundwork” that supports the work you do, you will become much better at it. Why? Because you will understand why things work the way they do, what might be wrong when things are broken, and so on. You will become better by learning what happens at a lower level than your work.

If you are a Web developer, read the HTTP RFC and the HTML spec. If you use a code generator, really look at the code it generates; if you use database tools, take a look at the underlying SQL it generates; and so on.

#8: Look at senior developers’ code

At your job, take a look at the code the senior developers are writing and ask how and why things were done a particular way. If you can, check out open source projects as well. Even if other developers don’t have the best coding habits, you’ll learn a lot about how code is written. Be careful not to pick up bad habits along the way. The idea here isn’t to just blindly imitate what other developers are doing; it’s to get an idea of what works and what makes sense and try to imitate it.

#9: Learn good habits

Nothing marks an inexperienced coder like stupid variable names, poor indentation habits, and other signs of being sloppy. All too often, a developer learned how to program without being taught the less interesting details such as code formatting — and it shows. Even though learning these things will not always make your code better or you a better developer, it will ensure that you are not viewed as an entry-level developer by your peers. Even if someone is a senior developer, when variables are named after their 97 cats or their functions are called “doSomething(),” they look like they do not know what they are doing, and it makes their code harder to maintain in the process.

#10: Have fun

Want to be stuck on the career treadmill? Hate your job. What it takes to move up in this business is not merely dogged determination to bring home an ever growing paycheck but an actual enjoyment of your work. If you do not like your work and you are a junior developer, what makes you think that being an intermediate or senior developer will be any better? Change jobs or change careers. On the other hand, if you love the work you are doing, great! I guarantee that you can become a better developer if you keep at it.

Busy-busyhan

2011-08-30T22:07:00.004+08:00

Too busy to write a solid blog update... :(

Deadlines do come true .....

Courtship or Friendship?

2011-08-28T01:26:00.006+08:00

Okay! Dr. BokyLove is here.

image courtesy of http://www.myspace.com/drill187band

Every now and then I see people on social network sites complaining and lambasting the world and of course everybody else on how time and destiny stab them at their back and cause their heart to bleed. They seem to find it hard to believe that after all the things they have done to impress somebody else, it is still not enough to be in a relationship with the desired other.

Well, wake up folks! Courtship is one big fiasco in the modern world. If we notice it closely, courtship is the stage of a relationship where we are showing the best of what we have got. All plain and damn right pathetic. In a world wherein relationship mostly never lasted in years, with these kind of courtship, this for sure will face an untimely doom!

We take a look at those who look for relationship in areas such as bars, disco houses and even in parks and benches, these are the modern youngsters. They base solely the desired other on first, how impressive she looks, how big her tooott is, and of course how well she dressed herself. When everything is good in the eyes, then the asking of numbers and the sweet patweetums will begin. If both are attracted, then the relationship begins. But the problem on this is, sooner or later the evil side of the coin switches. Both of you will then show the hidden attitude, the worst side of the two-faced coin such as being possessive, violent at times and sometimes even small things such as being a plain @$$! Of course, doom is near. Unless both could hold up on the worst then the relationship could have a chance of survival.

A good relationship will always such with deep friendship. Why you ask? In friendship, in the early stages of friendship, we get to see the worst part of a friend, tactless, demanding, noisy, humiliating at times, and even lazy and of course a complete pain in the bottom. Friendship, is better achieve on the acceptance of the indifference of friends, and still enjoy the companionship. Then the affection develops until both of them realizes later, that they just can't live without the other. At this very moment, a long and enduring relationship, will then be achieve.

But one of the worst case scenario of friendship to a lover relationship is when the other is not ready or would remain on the line "only friends". It could really ruin a great friendship where both could and would not talk with each other for a long time or maybe forever.

Risks will always be there in relationship. Love is a long and difficult journey, and only accepting and taking risks could we truly appreciate the fruits of a romance. always remember, not all day the romance will be at the heat, a little longer and the fire will turn cold, it is only then that a relationship based on the foundation of friendship could survive.

As one saying tell us, "If you can't accept me at my worst, then you dont deserve me at my best"

The Woz

2011-08-24T17:04:00.006+08:00

The Woz

Steve Wozniak

"You didn't have to have a real specific reason for choosing

a name when you were a tiny little company of two people;

you choose any name you want." Soon, Apple was heard all over the world

I consider the WOZ as one of the most inspiring person in the computer world. The man behind the technical genius of the Mac mainframe, he is referred as the other Steve. Co-founder of Apple Computers, the computer world will not be where it is right now if not for the the WOZ..

In 2000, he was inducted into the Inventors Hall of Fame and was awarded the prestigious Heinz Award for Technology, The Economy and Employment for “single-handedly designing the first personal computer and for then redirecting his lifelong passion for mathematics and electronics toward lighting the fires of excitement for education in grade school students and their teachers.”

A funny scene from the The Big Bang Theory... a cameo role of the Woz

My Chocolate Hills Trip - The Bohol Escapade

2011-08-22T23:20:00.006+08:00

Here are some wild pics of our Chocolate Hills Summer Trip!! This is totally a great experience seeing a true natural treasure. It opens my eyes to go travel again... :)

How to Improve your Skills as a Programmer

2011-08-22T19:41:00.005+08:00

post from http://www.wikihow.com/Improve-your-Skills-as-a-Programmer

This will give you a few hints and some help to becoming a better programmer. So read on and enjoy! Programming can be a lot of fun.

Gather complete requirements.

Take the time to write down what the end product needs to achieve. Clarity of thought at this stage will save a lot of time down the line.

Write an implementation plan (or model).

For something small and self-contained, this might just be a basic flowchart or an equation.
For larger projects, it helps to break it into modules and consider what job each module must do, how data gets passed between modules, and within each module how it will function.

Add Comments to your code.

Whenever you feel your code needs some explanation, drop some comments in. Each function should be preceded by 1-2 lines describing the arguments and what it returns

Use naming conventions for variables.

It will help you keep track of what type the variable is and also what it's purpose is. Although this means more typing than x = a + b * c, it will make your code easier to debug and maintain.

Organize your code.

Use visual structure to indicate code structure. i.e. indent a code block that sits within a conditional (if,else,...) or a loop (for,while,...) Also try putting spaces between a variable name and an operator such as addition, subtraction, multiplication, division, and even the equal sign (myVariable = 2 + 2). As well as making the code more visually elegant, it makes it much easier to see the program flow at a glance.

Test

Start by testing it with inputs that you would typically expect. Then try inputs that arepossible but less common. This will flush out any hidden bugs. There is an art to testing and you will gradually build up your skills with practice.

Write your tests to always include the following:

Extremes: zero and max for positive values, empty string, null for every parameter.

Practice. Practice. Practice.
Be prepared for change.

In a realistic working environment, requirements change. However, the clearer you are at the start about the requirements and the clearer your implementation plan, the less likely those changes will be down to misunderstanding or "Ah, I hadn't thought of that" scenarios.You can take an active role in improving clarity of thinking by presenting your requirements document or your implementation plans before coding to ensure that what you are planning to create is actually what's been asked for.

Structure the project as a series of milestones with a demo for each block. Approach the programming one milestone at a time - the less you need to think about at any moment, the more likely you will think clearly.

Start simple and work towards complexity.
When programming something complex, it helps to get the simpler building blocks in place and working properly first.

Super Workspace Setup (Next Project)

2011-08-20T22:15:00.004+08:00

My current workspace sucks... Ultimately sucks!! If there is a level of suckiness, my workspace is much lower.. Having a 17" CRT monitor, (man, get a life!!! CRT monitor!!! ), I almost puke on that one...

So finally decided, I will create a Superworkspace for my homebased programming. A workspace so cool, that just by looking at it I will definitely be inspired to work on and spend my waking hours in front of it. I have my ideas, my setup in mind.... I got a lot of inspiration online and here are some of them:

A dual monitor with a bookshelf by the side. This would work for me coz I love books ..

A multi-platform and a number of monitors is like a kick ASS setup... man with all those gadgets... I will have a happy techie life

A comfortable office like able is also cool.. Im not into gaming but still it will look good..

And a dark and gloomy setup, I kinda love this setup.

We this in mind, I will try to do my thing and get on with it.. Hopefully in 3 months time I could post my setup in my blog. It will be a very interesting 3 months for me.

The Passion Of Programming (Repost)

2011-08-18T21:02:00.005+08:00

http://bwmson.wordpress.com/2007/01/19/the-passion-of-programming/

I know this title sounds ultra-geeky. But this post is a retrospect on how cool it used to feel to write computer programs. Like most things in life, time (along with other things) wears down the enthusiasms associated with things you love to do.

For me, I can remember sitting in front of a Commodore 64 thinking up cool things to program. Writing programs that Poked/Peeked places on the monitor….that manipulated the cassette player input drive. Then getting a modem and actually connecting to CompuServe. Unbelievable.

In high school we had a TRS-80. We learned BASIC…and played a lot of Lunar Lander. That was a program where you tried to land on the moon, controlling thrust and descent. No real graphics….but it sure was fun.

Then, in the early and mid 80′s learning Pascal, C, Data Structures, Assembler, Fortran, and BASIC. It was still an incredible rush to figure out those oddball assignments like using recursion to simulate parking cars on the street. Then, one semester, we had to write our own compiler. Everyone was assigned to a team of three. My two partners were more interested in checking out the closest bar than writing the compiler. At the time I could not understand it. So, I wrote the compiler. How could anyone not want to solve this problem quickly??? A valuable lesson in life was learned.

Then, after graduation, came the hunt for a job. This is where I started to lose that enthusiasm. Each rejection letter seemed to take a little more out of me. Finally, I landed a cool job with a good company. I was sure I would enjoy this.

Another lesson hit me like a ton of bricks. I had to go to meetings? Fill out deliverable documents??? Only 25% of the time was spent programming? Wait a second. Then, over the years that 25% was whittled down to 20%, 18%, 10%, to now around 5%. For, you see, the skill of programming is not the highly valued skill it used to be. It has been commoditized. All development must be done according to strict rules and guidelines. The personal reward and gratification derived by the creativity and innovation has been almost completely stripped out.

This isn’t limited to a few companies. It is more and more common.

Yes, I know, I sound like a spoiled baby. “You still get paid a nice salary. If you don’t like it, leave.” I would….but with a family rooted in the area, that isn’t easy. And I really do like the company I work for….just wish I still had the passion I used to have.

I try to stay atune to programming by writing tools at home, as well as helping organizations and clubs who have purchased computers but need help realizing their true value. Helping people like that does give me a boost. There are some incredibly cool technologies now that make computer programming really interesting. Those keep me pumped, too.

Maybe it doesn’t have to do with programming at all. Maybe I just don’t want to grow up any more. I want to be that kid again.

Maybe I should go to ebay and start looking for a Commodore.

I'm a Romantic Geek

2011-08-14T16:10:00.002+08:00

Nobody could preg_replace() you in my heart, coz ur the perfect preg_match() for me. I wish you are here strtotime(now) and we could spend more mktime() . Once you fopen() my heart, dont break it for I will die() without you.

Dont strcmp() with others coz Im array_unique() and IM not just your random() partner... Im maybe different but but I will exceed your prev() and better than your next() for Im your current()

Turn Disaster into Fortune

2011-08-10T05:28:00.003+08:00

I'm a masochistic lion. I inflict pain to myself to give me the reason to redeem myself. I bleed, I cried, I scarred and I almost died. All for the sake of redemption. In order to feel pleasure, you must understand pain, in order to feel love you must first break your heart, in order to become successful, you must fail and in order to be happy, you must understand anguish.

This world works in pair, for you to understand the other, you must first understand the other. Insane you say, but that's reality. Once a disaster happens to one's life, it is just a matter of time that fortune befalls upon them. All you have to do is endure and persevere because as always, at the end of the dark tunnel, will be always the light...

Or it could be just another incoming train....

I need Focus...

2011-08-01T20:45:00.003+08:00

I need Focus... a lot of them .... Just finished 2 local projects.... 1 awaiting and 1 ongoing.... For these past few months due to unrelated and overly stupid reason, I've been delayed. All my fault, the blame is on me.... Having trouble getting pass a line, it hinders everything in me.. It leaves me drained, stressed, tired and couldn't concentrate. I daydream a lot, lost in my quicksand of thoughts, I spent a lot of time hoping.. Hoping that everything will still go back to everything that was once been.. and then it smacked me in the head bigtime.. I'm losing my grasp on reality...

Although it may seem strange to me, just realizing it when everything goes awry and falling into different places, it's like a scythe in my neck.. I felt fear, fear of what I would become if I allow myself to be in such a situation. A situation that I'm pretty much sure I'm not the first one, and will not be the last one.

I need concentration, a lot of them, to completely be engulfed with my works, to finished everything and hope to get a lot more of them.. I'm glad I have this chance. So please, Oh Heaven don't let me F#@ked up for some stupid reason that shouldn't have deserved the time it was given in the first place....

Being laughed at...

2011-07-31T22:00:00.007+08:00

"It is much better to be laughed at doing the things you love than be praised for doing

the things you dont care about..."

Recently I posted this saying in my Facebook (View my FB account) wall, having created this saying myself hopefully without any plagiarism whatsoever... I've been thinking that maybe just maybe I've been doing it all wrong all these times. Isn't it funny that people would laugh at other people who they think are not in the same brain wavelength as them. A lot of people think and act as if those people who are in disagreement and in contradiction to what they believed in are entirely on fault or wrong. Maybe that is why this world is in total chaos because I believe this is the greatest mistake of human beings.

No matter in what field of argument we have, whether it is in education, politics, warfare or religion, we don't respect the opinion of others nor accept in its entirety their philosophy and we tend to believe in our principle and stick to it until the end. This kind of thinking is good, as long as we don't force others to be in conjunction of what we believe in.

A long time ago, I stated the 3 things that would make a man contented and truly happy of his life:

Doing what you love
Loving what you do
Loving the person you truly love

Others may insult, ridicule or make fun of you, but to think that if you are doing the things you love, then to hell with them. At the end of the day, it is you who will have the smile on your face and not them.

Being laughed while doing what you love is great, it means two things, you are gaining attention and people envy you. Live your life as you want it, don't let other people force their way of living unto you... Even if society judges you, you will always be the person that you see in the mirror every single day. People could destroy you reputation but never your character....

My Favorite Song

2011-07-17T00:55:00.001+08:00

Austin
Blake Shelton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bb1DTsxBOfE

She left without leavin' a number
Said she needed to clear her mind
He figured she'd gone back to Austin
'Cause she talked about it all the time
It was almost a year before she called him up
Three rings and an answering machine is what she got

If you're callin' 'bout the car I sold it
If this is Tuesday night I'm bowling
If you've got somethin' to sell, you're wastin' your time, I'm not buyin'
If it's anybody else, wait for the tone,
You know what to do
And P.S. if this is Austin, I still love you

The telephone fell to the counter
She heard but she couldn't believe
What kind of man would hang on that long
What kind of love that must be
She waited three days, and then she tried again
She didn't know what she'd say,
But she heard three rings and then

If it's Friday night I'm at the ballgame
And first thing Saturday, if it don't rain
I'm headed out to the lake
And I'll be gone, all weekend long
But I'll call you back when I get home
On Sunday afternoon
And P.S. If this is Austin, I still love you

Well, this time she left her number
But not another word
Then she waited by the phone on Sunday evenin'
And this is what he heard

If you're callin' 'bout my heart
It's still yours
I should've listened to it a little more
Then it wouldn't have taken me so long to know where I belong
And by the way, boy, this is no machine you're talkin' to
Can't you tell, this is Austin, and I still love you

I still love you

My Life...

2011-07-07T01:20:00.004+08:00

This is really a wild experience for me this year.. 2011...

I resigned from a great job to land into better jobs. I've been looking forward into combining working in the industry and working in the academe, and good for me I'm in both now... Going back to the academe is a great boost for myself... Teaching will always be a part of me, no questions asked... I love developing young IT guys and gals into becoming full-pledged programmers and web developers, it's a heart warming experience...

And working home-based for an online client is really a different experience.. It;s really great to feel that I've landed on jobs that I was just dreaming a long time ago... Practicing what you preach and preaching what you practice, I guess this is my life...

Although the setbacks are: lesser time to enjoy life, gaining weight and beer-belly and cramming on other projects that's pending and delayed.. and of course the stressful feeling of lack of sleep and overworked body, and the worst the laziness on the job at hand... are just pretty common on this. But what's in life if without the struggles and hardships.. It's like every moment is worth living... It feels like Im completely living everyday of my life without the waste of over sleeping and idle minds.. After we die, we will have all the time sleeping.. So why waste it on sleeping..

I want a simple life... Nothing fancy... Doing what I love... Loving what I do.... Making the world a better place one student and one website at a time.. lmao.

Now Im looking forward on saving some of my salary for future spending ... In 5 months time I will be 26... getting old and unhealthy ... and still having a lot of unreached dreams ... Need to double time ...

Independence Day

2011-06-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

The responsibility of a country is not in the hands of a privileged few. We are strong, and we are free from tyranny as long as each one of us remembers his or her duty as a citizen. Whether it's to report a pothole at the top of your street or lies in a State of the Union address, speak out! Ask those questions. Demand that truth. Democracy is not a free ride, man. I'm here to tell you. But, this is where we live. And if we do our job, this is where our children will live.

- Fair Game (Sean Penn)

Starting another Chapter

2011-06-06T16:10:00.001+08:00

10 Secrets to Success

2011-05-30T13:37:00.003+08:00

What is it that makes people successful and I mean really successful compared to you or me? Are they smarter or do they work harder? Are they risk takers or have powerful and influential friends?

1. How You Think is Everything.

2. Decide upon Your True Dreams and Goals

3. Take Action.

4. Never Stop Learning:

5. Be Persistent and Work Hard

6. Learn to Analyze Details

7. Focus Your Time And Money

8. Don’t Be Afraid To Innovate

9. Deal And Communicate With People Effectively

10. Be Honest And Dependable

Work Ethics

2011-05-30T12:56:00.002+08:00

A long time ago, when I was still learning how to create programs, my zeal was overwhelming. My desire to learn was so massive that I even scare myself. The chance of learning something new and far greater is the most appealing thing in a learning mind. After I learned all the basics, and become an intermediate programmer, all my zeal and gusto just disappear.

How can I regain all those lost zeal? How can I become the same person that was eager to learn and try all the codes in the books. Now that my source of income and probably of my future family is programming and web development, how can I be so dumb of losing the zeal.

I dont need reasons, I need actions. To wake me up. To tell me that I need to work my a$$ off. It is just so frustrating that as time goes by, lots and lots of projects and codes becomes more and more delayed . I know from experience that it sucks but I guess I need a kick in the bottom to wake me up..

I'm currently jobless, hoping it will end soon. Time is passing by, and at the age of 25, my life is beginning to slip away from my grasps. Oh, how I hate it.. Oh how I hate it....

The Reason for Motivation

2011-05-01T00:18:00.002+08:00

As I'm looking for that reason for my motivation, I was kinda surprised to see that I don't have any logical reason that keeps me motivated for my improved actions. It's like I am always looking for reasons, that would justify my actions. An escape route for those who falter in their principles..

I have not written in this little blog of mine for a very long time. I guess moving on is really hard to do. But right at this moment, I guess I've accomplished what other people had failed to do, I thought I couldn't never do it, I move on. Moving forward will only be the direction that I will be going.

Finally, with all regrets and pains, it is the thing of the past. The promise to be the pillar of her success was accomplished. The rough stone turned into a priceless diamond..... I guess I now understand the feeling of the goblins and their ill-will attitude to the wand-bearers. Just like the sword of Gryffindor, full of rubies and only the courageous could hold and use, I'm not worthy for that sword.

2011 is a great and interesting year. I ended a relationship, will quit my job, venture into another field and most likely, become someone that I'm trying to become. I will give you the details for these things in the near future.

Start from small money (Bo Sanchez)

2011-02-08T22:55:00.001+08:00

Do You Want Big Money?

Start With Small Money

Early last year, I taught my maids to invest in the Stock Market. They started by saving P2000 a month.

A few friends laughed at me. Someone asked me, “What can happen with their P2000 a month? That’s so small.”

But that’s why people remain poor. They don’t see the big money in the small money.

Today, one of my maids has P72,286 in her Stock Market account. The other one has P88,069 in her account. These amounts may mean nothing to you, but to them, they feel very rich.

They started with a small amount. Just P2000 a month. But when they discovered how investing worked, they were hooked. So when I gave them a raise or gave them a bonus, they didn’t spend it. They invested it.

Here’s my fearless forecast: I have no doubt that in less than 10 years, my maids will be millionaires.

Huwag mo smallin ang maliit na blessing. Lalaki rin yan!

My point? Unless you see the big blessings in the small blessings, you’ll never receive the big blessings. Because every small blessing has a big blessing waiting to come out.

29 things to do to have a great life (Bo Sanchez)

2011-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

My message today: The keys to success are simple. I believe that real genius lies in sticking to the simple.

Today, I’d like to “spoon feed” you.

I’d like to give you 29 simple things that you can do this year that will revolutionize your life.

If you do these 29 simple things, 2011 will be a blast.

1. Laugh with inspiring friends at least once a week or more

2. Have Mentors in the most important areas of your life

3. Walk 30 minutes a day

4. Use your talents for God by serving in a ministry

5. Invest 20% of your income every month

6. Read one inspiring book a month

7. Cut TV watching to the barest minimum (Zero is a good number)

8. Limit newspaper reading to 5 minutes or less a day

9. Take vacations often

10. Eat fruits for breakfast

11. Always have a salad for lunch and dinner

12. Start a business (or improve your business) this year

13. Always be grateful to God and others

14. Always live by your deepest values

15. Spend time with God everyday

16. Play with your kids at least once a day (If you don’t have any, borrow.)

17. Have a weekly date with your spouse (If you don’t have any, don’t borrow!)

18. Date your parents regularly

19. Before you sleep, remove all anger by forgiveness

20. Be the kindest person you can be

21. Find your passion and live it fully

22. Give more hugs (and receive as many)

23. Listen to understand, not to reply

24. Celebrate more often

25. Put people over projects

26. Enjoy quiet and solitude

27. Always give 10% of your income to God

28. Keep dreaming

Self-worth

2011-01-25T11:47:00.002+08:00

I now truly understand the meaning of sacrificing a lot for other people especially a special one that is. But the time has come to give more time to myself now. I've been giving my time, my efforts and even my sleep for others that I deprived myself to it. After a couple of years, regrettably, I want to turn back the time and bring those wasted moments back.

Loving others is difficult if we truly look at it at love's point of view. I guess the secret to it is to love oneself in order to learn how to love somebody else. If we give ourselves gifts, the time, the efforts, the financial stability slowly we will realize that we are ready to share it to someone and during that time, then we could say we will love rightfully.

Self worth is understanding yourself, finding your own weaknesses and strengths, realizing your true value and giving your self the chance to become the best that you can be. Writing about this column, I remembered the move "One More Chance" by John Lloyd and Bea, one of the most beautiful love story of all time in the Philippine cinema. The film showed how Bea's character left her BF for 5 years to rediscover herself and become what she wanted to be, I guess I understand her character more. When she reach the stage wherein she is her best, then she could love someone more and be happy with it.

This time, as selfish at may sound, this is the time that I will love myself and learn to become someone that I really want to be when I was a little younger. I guess in that way when someone would come in to my life to share it with, then I would be ready to offer my best.

As I said a long time ago, success is worthless if you don't have someone to share it to. :)

Responsibility

2011-01-21T12:32:00.003+08:00

RESPONSIBILITY: the quality or state of being responsible: as

a : moral, legal, or mental accountability

b : reliability, trustworthiness

Every man is responsible for his actions. What we do will always result to situations whether in our liking or not. That is one of the greatest trait of human and the reason of our survivability, we ADAPT to the changes in our surroundings.

That is why we need to plan our every actions. Give a little more thinking time, rethink if possible, analyze, plan out. it may result to everyone as a boring life but it works. Being responsible and wise is the man that I want to be. I may not be as smart as anybody else but at least I know what to do. There will be a time in your life where you will be put in a danger zone, in a quicksand where getting up is difficult or nearly impossible but you will not stop struggling, because when you do, then that is time you will lose. I heard that from some golf movie.

Great power comes great responsibility.

Do great things to small tasks and expect grander things for much bigger tasks!

Changing of the Era

2011-01-17T02:30:00.004+08:00

What happens when you try to change the current era to a new one? What are the factors that will greatly influence the transition. Being on a transition is really difficult, you don't know where to begin, you don't know what to do, what to give up, what to fight off.

There are signs running around you, clearly telling you that the time has come. Even the people that surrounds you, friends, families and even acquaintances; they seem to tell to move on with your life.

In your past there were great lessons learned, trials overcame and some eventually failed. It is just that we don't have the control of everything. We will never understand it, but we are greatly limited in our capacity to control all the factors in our lives especially those that are significant.

Maybe that is just partly the human side of us. We may never overcome the past but certainly we will just tend to let go of it and move on for the future. Change the era as they say, but why is it difficult?

Maybe the problem is that we force our eyes to see what we like to see, force our ears to hear what we really wants to hear and force our hearts to feel what it really want to feel and force our mind to bend reality and to follow what we think is right.

In this ever changing world wherein everything will change, it is up to us to adapt to the changes. It's difficult, really.. Really difficult,but as an important person told me tonight, if that is what is happening what can I do?

I guess I just need to harden myself, kick my conscience and do what I think is fair and justifiable. We may never forget the past, at least we have the present to attend to and a future to work hard for. Life is full of mysteries, adventures and more amazing journeys ahead. Some people may leave you to continue with their own journeys, and well, you, you have a life to think about. You have a journey to continue. People may come and go, but the only thing we could do is to treasure those who remain. For those who remain are your blessings and those who left are great memories.

In moving on to the new journey, we must be strong-willed. Live on.. Plan ahead.. Become what we want to be and be the person that will define you in the future. And once the time has come to look back at your memories, just look around you and be thankful for those who remained.

~ Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear. ~

A week after

2011-01-08T21:51:00.002+08:00

Finally, after 2 weeks of hectic coding.. I got a little breathing space.. I am trying to recuperate my energy for another bout of mind brainstorming... I wish I'm a little smarter.. But I could manage with this now..If we look into it right now, we may have the idea of how things should happen with me.

I wish I will be paid with my previous works, Im planning to buy myself a refrigerator, or maybe a cute scooter.. I'm still not sure, but any other way would still be good.. It's Saturday night here people are milling themselves with going out and having party. I would settle for a lonely evening sitting in my desk and playing with my imaginations. I guess that's the limits of my social interaction but then again, that's not what I want a life of being one of those socialites who would bang heads and drink till wee hours.

I will try my hardest to have a great 2011. I will make my every waking hour a multiple steps to reach the top of my stairway of heaven. I'm 25 and Im still far far away from what I want. I can do this.. I just to update myself with what I'm looking for and what I need to do.

There are problems in my life, I know. Those are trials, they just keep on popping like mushrooms, but if I can't overcome this? How can I overcome problems in the future.

Right eh?

6th day of the Year

2011-01-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

As it slowly dawned on the days that past by, I look at it with every little interest.. My life is changing bit by bit. Getting better as the days past by, trying to slowly mend the broken glasses that once were splattered on the floor since the grand departure.

There I have it, looking at me straight in the eyes and telling me that reality sometimes in most incomprehensible than most fantasies. My career will start to slowly climb up the plane..

All I want is to really start a newer page, a newer chapter. With the people who really want to come and stay in this new chapter. Time to disregard those who choose to go and depart me, and change with someone who are there with you by your side.

Friends come and go.... but those who stay are those who are really crazy but they must be keep forever... Not just in the memory.

First day at Work for 2011

2011-01-03T12:21:00.006+08:00

Starting my first day of work. And having a big task at hand with 7 days to finish. Im starting to do a little extra right now. Trying to look for the API of these address book problems I had.. And time is running out on me..

Trying to look on the core code of the API so that I could had an idea of getting all what I need ... :)

Just heard it a while ago, after every failure, there is success. So brace yourselves... :)

Great, one single step for me, one giant leap for humanity.....

Now on to more of mind boggling searching and trial and errors... Man, with limited intelligence such as mine... I need to kill it with hard work. Sometimes I hate it when I couldn't solve the problem in one sitting.

Start of 2011

2011-01-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

Another year will start and I haven’t got a clue still of what I want to do with this new year.. Im thinking of going abroad this year, process my papers and work in Canada , UK or in any other countries that will give me the opportunity. My first day of the 2011 was one hell of sickness day. I got a terrible headache, flu, stomach cramps and LBM. Currently I am still experiencing all of these.
I just sat here in my apartment reading codes and taking meds and doing some practice tweaking. I wish Im home right now so that somebody can take care of me.
Tomorrow will be work day, it will be hectic. With a large scale task waiting for me and some program on queue, I will have one helluva January…

God bless me…
Just brought some workout tools in Lopue’s East. I’ve been looking forward to this purchased, this could be the start of the new consciousness for my health and body stature that recently got out of hand. If only I had a good health I could start working out.
It’s a lonely rainy afternoon; I got cold and shivering… It’s so boring without internet at home.. Currently working on a payroll details problem which been haunting me for a couple of weeks. Hopefully to finish it in a couple of hours.
Progressing on the payroll details but not yet done.  .. Having trouble with payment of adjustments.
Finally moving on the next step.. But my eyes are getting blurry now, I will just hold on for a couple of hours.. Have a work tomorrow.. Planning on sleeping for 6 hours tonight. That would be good unless laziness takes over and kill me off my feet. (I wish IM not doing one of take-up-a-lot-of-time fancy things!)
I still have one hour left before midnight, and I’m freaking out! Dr Watson PostMortem? Wadahelisdat?

Payroll System...

2010-12-13T01:42:00.004+08:00

Damn, payroll system is so so sick!!! lol... A lot of tiny little things that needs tinkering... It's so sick...But Im loving it..

F@#ked Up Life

2010-12-12T00:41:00.002+08:00

Seems like Im having another misfitz again ... :) Im fuck!ng up my life to another extent... Ive been doing it knowingly which is plainly stupid ... :)

New Way

2010-11-25T00:17:00.003+08:00

It seems like the time has arrived to have a real new chapter in life...

In a month or so I will be 25 and not getting any younger .. Still young but a little too late... There are advantages when your birtday falls in the last month, it tells you that another year has pass and a new one will soon come.

There are a lot of things that I want to do in the coming year. The past year was a melodramatic charade of bullshits. It has always been. It's been wrong when you tend to give more that what should have been given. But lessons learned and a new straight road has arise.

A year ago, I was still new to the company, a newbie who doesn't know sh!t. But after a year, and working on CMSs I had become somebody who I want to become. There were a lot of opportunities missed and given up. A lot of time and money wasted on uneventful and not fruitful endeavors.

So this coming year, I want to become somebody that matters, and not just somebody who you will go to because you need me. Time flies and hopefully 2011 will become a prosperous year for me and my family. There are a lot of possibilities that will happen, I still could die any given day but still Im want to live it to its fullest.

My dream was to create a niche in my industry, to become a top programmer, a top designer (I wish) ,to become a backbone of certain CMSs. The years is thinning, as so my hairline but time is of the essence. If I need to give a push the time would be now.. Many people will be please , many people will despise me. Many will be mad, many would admire, but a the end of the day, it is what you have done that defines you...

Imagine what can I do if I do what I can

2010-11-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

Imagine what can I do if I do what I can...

This single quote is currently giving me false hopes or is it?

The Omega

2010-11-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

Finally... Seems like the two years spent with you was long and short at the same time... Seems like we are really not meant for each other.. Glad that I met and spent my time .. Now Im back where I came from, alone but a stronger man... It is really a pleasure.. :)... And its been great... Maybe we end nothing much of a happy ending but the lessons and memories will be forever treasure... Although the world may never know, it will always be fun.. I will miss having you in my life and by my side.. I will miss the late night works, the rush, the cramming....

But as time goes by, we may see the world in someone's else arms.. I wish you the best.. And Im sad that I can't be a part of of the realization of your dreams, but I'm glad I was with you in the journey...

Decisions that matter

2010-09-14T00:11:00.003+08:00

Just what really happens?

Its been noticeable, my absence in blogging that is. Long time ago I write all the things that comes up in my mind.. Such petty things that brought joy, happiness, sadness and all the emotions that I felt and pretended I felt. Writing I guess will never depart me.

I guess I F$#ked up my life right now. Seems everything I've been doing had never been why I'd dreamed a long time ago when I still daydream and look at the skies and trying to figure out where my life is leading me. My life has been a result of simultaneous and sequential mistakes that I made, opportunities I lost and chances I missed . No blaming but on me. I was glad I'm in a job I've been wanting for so long yet I still don't give my everything into it. I sometimes lose interest and even cuddled up during the entire development of any project.

Ive been affected by things that continue to haunt me even in the twilight of my sleep. Long time ago I thought being in a relationship would boost me up and give the kick that I;ve been looking but after a couple of years or a lot of months, seems its like the other way around. Maybe you would call me a dramatic fool, but it's true. I don't know where I went wrong. Its just that maybe not all the time, you will get what you have been wanting.

Being in a relationship is really a rollercoaster ride so to speak. There are curves, dives, sudden turns and even 360 degrees flips that could make the relationship stormy but that what makes it flavorful. I thought being liberated and entering in a non-committal relationship would be fun, exciting and adventurous which were all true but it seems it will always be like that.. You will just wait for any of you to throw in the towels and say "I'ts been fun, but I need to go".

In days to come, my life would be depending on the situations to come. I don't know what will happen but for sure these coming moments will greatly define another bookmark in my written life.. Its time to make decisions, decisions that will give you the peace of mind, decisions that will give you contentment and security, decisions that will change the course of your life, decisions that matter....

Burnout

2010-07-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

Burnout is a psychological term for the experience of long-term exhaustion and diminished interest.

These past few months, I experienced one of the worst burn out in my life. I did a little research on burn out and found out that I am currently showing severe symptoms of burnout... Although, not yet considered a medical disease but the emotional and psychological exhaustions cause so much strain on me that it keeps pulling me down. I'm currently researching the steps in coping up or overcoming the stress and strains of my current exhaustion.

I hope I can change my current attitude and revive myself from my current slumber.

My weapon,

A Month of Stupidity

2010-06-10T14:08:00.001+08:00

Willie of Fortune - Q & A

2010-04-21T14:27:00.001+08:00

These are questions and actual answers of contest participants!

1. Q: "Ano sa Tagalog ang teeth?" A: "Utong!"

2. Q: "Kung ang light ay ilaw, ano naman ang lightning?" A: "Umiilaw!"

3. Q: "Kung vegetarian ang tawag sa kumakain ng gulay, ano ang tawag sa kumakain ng tao? A: "Humanitarian?"

4. Q: "Sina Michael at Raphael ay mga." A: "Ninja?"

5. Q: "Ano ang karaniwang kasunod ng kidlat?" A: "Sunog!"

6. Q: "Magbigay ng sikat na Willie." A: "Willie da pooh!"

7. Q: "Ang mga Hindu ay galing sa aling bansa?" A: "Hindunesia?"

8. Q: "Anong hayop si King Kong?" A: "Pagong!"

9. Q: "Magbigay ng mabahong pagkain." A: "Tae!"

10. Q: "Saang bansa matatagpuan ang mga Canadians?" A: "Canadia!"

11. Q: "Kumpletuhin - Little Red." A: "Ribbon!"

12 Q: "Ano ang tinatanggal sa itlog bago ito kainin?" A: "Buhok?"

13. Q: "Magbigay ng pagkain na dumidikit sa ngipin." A: "Tinga!"

14. Q: "Anong oras kadalasang pinapatay ang TV?" A: "Pag balita?"

15. Q: "Ano ang tawag mo sa anak ng taong grasa?" A: "Baby oil?"

16. Q: "Saan karaniwang ginagawa ang mga sweets na ginagamit sa halu-halo?" A: "Sweetserland?"

17. Q: "Sinong higanteng G ang tinalo ni David ?" A: "Godzilla?"

18. Q: "Ano ang mas malaki, itlog ng ibon o sanggol ng tao?" A: "Itlog ng tao!"

19. Q: "Anong S ang tawag sa duktor nag nago-opera?" A: "Sadista?"

20. Q: "Blank is the best policy." A: "Ice tea?"

22. Q: "Saan binaril si Jose Rizal?" A: "Sa likod!"

23. Q: "Fill in the blanks - Beauty is in the eye of the ____." A: "Tiger?"

24. Q: "Ano ang kinakain ng monkey-eating eagle?" A: "Saging!"

25. Q: "Kung ang suka ay vinegar, ano naman ang Inggles ng toyo?" A: "Baliw!"

26. Q: "Anong tawag mo sa kapatid ng nanay mo?" A: "Kamag-anak!"

27. Q: "Saan nakukuha ang sakit na AIDS?" A: "Sa motel?"

28. Q: "Kung ang H2O ay water, ano naman ang CO2?" A: "Cold water!"

29. Q: "Sinong cartoon charcater ang sumisigaw ng yabba dabba doo?" A: "Si scooby dooby doo?"

30. Q: "Heto na si kaka, bubuka-bukaka." A: "Operadang bakla?"

31. Q: "Ilan ang bituin sa American flag?" A: "Madami!"

32. Q: "Ano ang tawag mo sa taong isa lang ang mata?" A: "Abnormal!"

FS Unlimited

2010-02-24T10:43:00.005+08:00

As I was browsing my PC directories for my previous programs, I noticed of how I've transformed my way into becoming the programmer I am now.. Funny that after a while that I've not read my code, I could not really understand what I've been doing during the development of the program. It feels like that the one that created my codes was not me.

The list of programs I'd finish were pretty nifty and of course, sometimes I couldn't still see myself as the one who made those. I've started my career as student-programmer who would create programs for my alma-mater. One of the first program I've created was the AMA Computerized Election using Visual Basic 6.0. It had become a tradition then for 4 straight years, I've slowly developed the program from static data into a dynamic queries of candidates.

The next project was the Miss Teen Philippines program for the judges. I was pretty proud of that damn thing.. I embraced that program with a few knowledge on network programming of VB 6.0... When a friend-teacher saw our work, they could not believe that we were the one that developed that system...

Then of course, our thesis... My first try on PHP... The program is kind of lame... Never tried PHP before.... But it's okay, we just pulled it up with the 3D animations...

Then came my first real life project... The Land Tax Information System... A VB project for one of the Local Government... Large scale program use in for recordings of properties of land tax...

After that, thesis, thesis and thesis for different schools... a Decision Support System for inventory. A Computerized Election for a school, a grading system for one college department... working on thesis programs really give a good financial boost... But creating thesis is really a big pain in the arse. Panels would request outrageous add-ons... Which really very different on working with real life...

One example is the Cyber-Classroom LAN-based thesis using PHP... Wherein after finishing the final system, I'm amazed of the level of difficulty of the system... I can't believe I was paid with the small amount...

Also there are other systems that I've finished and after making all those programs, I'm pretty glad where my career is heading right now...

As of now, I'm on a new venture... Slowly and slowly, I'm getting closer to my dreams....

La Primera Proyekto

2010-02-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

First Project... Hmmmmmm....

I've learn so much this three months way more than I learned from my Masters Degree in a year. Looking into my last project wherein I performed in a mediocre fashion, I still loved the way it turned out. Learning Joomla is the best way that ever happened to my career. Only by this time around that I've understand the true essence of software development(this is not a technical post :) so I will just leave that line of storytelling)... I've easily grasped the concept and dedicated most of time programming in the JoOmla-way..

At first, it is kinda shameful to admit that it is really way way difficult to fathom all the new terminologies and programming models, so I just decided to follow the main programming approach on components and modules...

Someday, how I wish that I could learn how to cut the site into DIVs and totally develop my own template...

This project also enrich my knowledge on Object-Oriented Programming with different styles.. Also learned AJAX and researched on other Javascript tools..

I just need to take another one step farther to learn more ideas in this field.. I hope that on the next project I could try different approaches and learn more tools...

The problems that I have encountered so far grind my mind that I had some migraine attacks in the morning... But what the heck, I'm learning... and there is no greater thing on the this earth than to learn....

I will just post some of my works here... Aja....

2010-02-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

Prince Purple Rain Lyrics

I never meant to cause you any sorrow
I never meant to cause you any pain
I only wanted one time to see you laughing
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain

Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain

I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend, hey
Baby, I could never steal you from another
It's such a shame our friendship had to end

Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you underneath the purple rain

Honey, I know, I know, I know times are changin'
It's time we all reach out for something new, that means you too
You say you want a leader, but you can't seem to make up your mind
And I think you better close it and let me guide you to the purple rain

Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
If you know what I'm singin' about up here, come on raise your hand
Purple rain, purple rain
I only want to see you, only want to see you in the purple rain

Totally

2010-02-17T15:21:00.003+08:00

In life, sometimes you need to learn to know what you want in order for you to know where you're going.

And now that is the difference.... I know now what I want... I will do every single moment of everyday to get what I want... At long last, my life has a new direction to face on.. Onwards to the sunrise, for the new beginning has risen...

I've not written on this blog for a long time but it doesn't mean I'm living astray... It's just that without writing here, I have fully established the very foundation of my life.. Another chapter had closed, and the pretext of this one is being written down... I can't wait to see the end of this chapter, but it's still a long way to go.. In this chapter, I want somebody to be a part of it... But I'm in no control whatsoever to the casting of this script... If that somebody still wants to be in on this, I would gladly allot the space for that person...

Nahhh... I'm saying more that what I'm supposed to say...

Until the next blogging session...

Signing off

The Reason

2009-11-27T10:35:00.002+08:00

Thursday, November 26, 2009

As the title implies, I miss this moment… Building sentences, formulating grammars and having the problem of what to write.

What would I write, well let me start, I’ve been in the wildest rollercoaster of my life this past few months. This whole month was really an unthinkable shift of the tectonic plates of my foundation; I can’t believe I would survive this. Really…

First is my job, yes it’s true. I’m not teaching now, should I say I decided to stop teaching. Well, there were different reasons why I stopped teaching. Maybe some of you who know me would say that it is because of the chaotic environment of my institution, other would speculate that I will choose other schools that offer a greener pastures and some would really think up of morbid scenarios on you naughty minds. 

But in reality those reasons partly help in reaching to my decision to leave the institution that had been a part of me for 7 years. Partly, but I will tell you the main reason of why I stopped; yes stop not quit, teaching. My real plan was to serve AMA for 2 years and then work in a programming company, but one normal day, I had this chance. Once in a lifetime chance to become somebody who I was once been dreaming of. With this opportunity, I didn’t let the chance slipped off my hands. I grabbed it and tried very hard to become very good at it.

Right now, I’m working as a web developer creating websites for foreign companies and I’m really enjoying my job. I’m learning. I can’t really believe that this past few weeks I’ve accumulated a certain amount of knowledge that could last a year. Exag?? Think about it..

The Sunrise

2009-11-27T10:34:00.003+08:00

November 7,2009

What is the difference of the sunrise today compared to the previous days of the sun rising?

It’s the first time in my entire life that I’ve looked the rise of the sun with a different view. I was self meditating and lecturing myself about life while I was jogging in the new government center when it hits me. The feeling of elation that suddenly rushes down in my conscious being was really amazing that when I look at the sun, I thought I saw the infamous light at the end of the tunnel.

At that moment I looked life in a different way. I now appreciate life, seems so easy to say but way to difficult to comprehend and to do too. I now notice I’m living a great life. Working in a job I dreamed of, loving the job and getting paid for a work that I love to do and most especially loving the woman I loved the most.

Those are blessings, graces and I can’t believe I’ve never seen it before. I really can’t ask for more. It really pays off when you will allow yourself to look at yourself in a general perspective. Self-meditate really has been a big part of my life during doubtful times, it allows me to understand the problems, create solutions and even expand my mind to make those problems into challenges that I need to overcome.

So for now, I just need to focus on my job, because after all I love programming. Give all my best, focus concentrate and be the best in the field that I chose. I must have the confidence and the desire to truly learn. Extend my base knowledge.

There is hope. There is a future that awaits me.

Life is so great and amazing that I want to live it.

Live your life.

Bo Sanchez.. Loving the Perfection of Your Imperfection

2009-11-11T11:55:00.003+08:00

Let me end with one of my favorite stories.

One day, a wife came to her husband with a magazine in her hand, “Darling, this article is wonderful. It describes a little activity that we can both do to improve our marriage. Can we do it together?”

“Sure,” her husband said.

“It says here that for one day, each of us will separately write a list of what areas we want the other to change. Little annoyances, little irritations, etc. And then tomorrow, we share this list to each other. Deal?”

“Deal!” the husband smiled.

That day, the man sat on the living room with paper and hand. The wife went to the bedroom and did the same thing.

The next day, over breakfast, the wife said, “Game? Can I start first?”

“Yes,” the husband said.

The wife pulled out three pages. Single spaced. Font 8. It was a long list. She began to read her list. “Darling, I don’t like it when you do this…” On and on, she read the little ways her husbands annoyed her.

The man felt a sting in his heart. The wife noticed this and asked, “Do you want me to continue?”

“I can handle it. Go on,” the man said.

So the wife continued to read.

Finally, the woman said, “Okay, it’s your turn.”

The husband pulled out his piece of paper and said, “Yesterday, I asked the question what are the changes I want in you. But hard as I tried to think, I couldn’t think of one thing.” He then showed to her the empty piece of paper in his hand. “Because to me, you’re perfect in your imperfections. I’ve accepted who you are—strengths and weaknesses. And I love the whole package. I love the mix. You are a wonderful person and I love you so much.”

The wife began to sob, rolled up her three pages in her hand, and beat her husband on the head, “Bwiset ka!” And hugged him tight for a very long time.

May your dreams come true,

Bo Sanchez

Annabel Lee

2009-11-03T11:14:00.001+08:00

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

11 Golden Rules To Live By - (repost)

2009-10-22T11:29:00.002+08:00

1.) Live Within Your Means
In order to be truly independent, it's imperative to live within your means. Your freedom is limited by owing money to anyone, whether it's a credit card company or a family member, so set yourself up for an unrestricted life by saving for the things you want and spending with a plan.

2.) Work Hard
Your job and the salary you command are your biggest assets in building wealth. Do your best at work and take the steps to make yourself indispensable to set yourself up for the highest level of success.

3.) Research Before You Act
Whether you're comparing travel package and a la carte prices for a vacation or looking up a company to see if it's legitimate, research is almost always worth your time.

4.) Avoid Buyer's Remorse
Feeling guilty just doesn't sit well. Avoid buyer's remorse by asking yourself these questions before making a purchase: Do I love it? How often would I wear or use it? Can I afford it? Could I find it cheaper somewhere else?

5.) Avoid Saver's Remorse
There is such a thing as being too thrifty for your own good. What's the point of squirreling away so much cash if you can't splurge occasionally on yourself and others? Include an amount of discretionary money into your budget to spend on things that you might not desperately need, but would make you smile.

6.) Strive For Happiness
Finding a job that makes you happy most of the time is possible, and it's worth taking risks to discover what fulfills you. If for one reason or another you're stuck in a position that isn't ideal, at least strive to end your day with something that does make you happy.

7.) Go For Quality, Not Quantity
Stuffing your closet with items that will fall apart in three months is a silly way to spend your hard earned cash. Buy a smaller quantity of things that are made to last, and you'll be the owner of higher quality items that look and feel like they're worth your money.

8.) Face Your Weaknesses Head-On
We're not perfect, but admitting that you have weaknesses and doing your best to improve will allow you to continue growing. Invest time in yourself to be the most well-rounded person you can be.

9.) Save For the Predictable and the Unexpected
We're all going to face retirement someday, and the best time to save for it is now. The golden years are inevitable. On the other hand, we also need to be prepared for the unexpected, like job loss or a medical emergency, so that we can remain in control of our finances even when other things aren't going our way.

10.) Negotiate
Doors aren't closed until you hear the word no. Negotiating things like salary and benefits can get you ahead of the game, and all you need is the confidence to ask.

11.) Set Goals on Top of Goals
Cap the feeling that you're going through the motions by revising your goals when you've accomplished your old ones. Whether it's saving for a vacation to a place you've always wanted to visit or considering the next step in your career, there's always something to keep you moving and motivated.

Source -

So damn crazy..

2009-10-15T14:45:00.002+08:00

So crazy Joomla --- >>>

Trying to understand Joomla and I just can't get a good hold of it... I'm familiar with being a Joomla User... But not as a Developer... I just don't know about this though, I hope I could do it soon... Really do it soon... Damn, Am i missing the point???

Now We’re Talking

2009-10-12T17:48:00.000+08:00

Ocotber 9, 2009

The realization of a five-year old dream has finally begun. Realtime! Bigtime!

The pressure is on, for real. I’ve been ecstatic since I accepted the task given to me by the boss. Although I don’t know where to begin but the amazing thing is I’m very much looking forward to it optimistically. It is like I know I’m going to accomplish it without reservations. Now we’re talking.

I know I can do it; all I’ve got to do is finish it rightfully on time. I guess it is time to give little efforts in erasing my previous habits in doing my work. I know this may sound stupidly annoying, I’m getting annoyed myself.

Day of Exhaustion

2009-10-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

October 7, 2009
From 9-10 PM

Just arrived from work and I really felt the exhaustion of the day’s work. Guess what I did the whole day: sat in front of the computer terminal and browse the internet the whole day. Who would have thought that sitting the whole day a tiresome work? Nobody, nobody but me.

Now that I’m back to my favorite green monoblock chair and still infront of my computer, I’ve no energy left to do my stuff. All I want is to play some desktop games or watch an episode of “Chuck”.

Haiiizzzt… But then again, I have to work on a prototype Employees’ Record System for another deadline. Maybe a few minutes of Hamster or Platypus and I will be back rolling again. And I’ve got a game tomorrow. Basketball that is, waah… Crazy, really crazy.

Back to my workstation again! See yah next upload. Got some few pics to upload also.

Change of Views

2009-10-07T15:55:00.002+08:00

It is been a long time since I look at this keyboard and notice how the letters and numbers will be my refuge in another little misfit.

Oh dear, now that I read back those lines, I could not even remembered my last article. Seems like I’m the same as ever. Nothing has changed, nothing is changing, and nothing will change. This is me, and as I see myself now, I’m not destined to do great things. As I’m thinking the next words for this article, I cruise a little journey back to memory lane, wherein I categorized myself as a dreamer and as a future achiever. But all is gone and few little ingenuity was left from those unlimited pit of dreams.

How my life turned a BIG U-Turn this way, I don’t know. In a matter of few months, I may make or break my life. Together with it, my dreams, my little prayers, my goals and even the relationship I have with the people I love.

Isn’t it strange? When a time in your life would come that you have never expected, and then you don’t know what to do or handle everything. I wish I could adapt. Because that is what humans do, adapt to the situation, make the best out of it and learn from those mistakes. And hope to God darn well that you will never make the same mistakes all over again.

I noticed as of late that my views of life have changed. From the disapprovingly pessimistic person to an overly eager optimist, I have gradually transformed. I don’t like it and as always will try a little harder to become what I want to be myself ideally. But then of course, there will be a lot to be done. There is no stopping it now.

As I end this article I would share a little saying from a dear friend of mine, Bill Cosby (ASA).

”I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody”.

It seems like that saying had been the missing link to my current situation. I’m pleaser but it brought nothing good to my life.

Message to Garcia

2009-09-29T17:05:00.000+08:00

As I’m reading the foreword of the book, I was amazed by how the book with few pages could go beyond the shores and borders of country and even one continent to be used by men and soldiers during the war times. It happened because the essence of the story of the book wherein Rowan followed the orders of the President without hesitation and inquisitiveness.
The story is all about the young soldier Rowan ordered by then President McKinley to deliver a certain message with great importance and confidentiality to General Garcia. The task was really difficult and life-threatening because of the insurgency that was happening in the Spanish-Cuban War. In order for America to support the insurgents a letter must be delivered to the general. Although the mission was dangerous, Rowan did what he was suppose to do and accomplished the job without questions and complaints.
The great moral of the book is the display of the perfect, loyal and dedicated employee who would follow instructions and get the job done even without supervision. Rowan, the messenger just used his initiative and follow the orders even if he doesn’t have any single idea about the subject of the topic.
The pamphlet also showed some latent examples of what a modern office setup and what would happen if a normal order was given by the employer. If the boss is around in the office, then by that time, employees would do their jobs dutifully but only the dedicated employee would still do the job rightfully and would give all his focus in finishing the job even if the boss is out of the office.
In a given situation in the field of computer technology and software development wherein jobs and assignments are given in the person who the boss believes could dutifully accomplish the task. The person is entrusted by the boss the work with the full responsibility of finishing it before the given deadline and doing a high-quality work that is globally competitive compared to existing websites and softwares.
What really inspired me about this book is the dedication shown by Rowan in his endeavor. As an employee, a person must have the integrity, and the dependability to his works. As the soldiers in the world war kept a copy in their pockets and bags of the “Message to Garcia” in order to remind them that it is their duty to finish the job no matter how difficult and dangerous the mission or the task ahead of them without personal inhibitions.
Learning from previous experiences with programming taught me how to really carry on with the job by using pretty well the resources I have and try to find means to find and look for the information that I lacked.
If all the employees have the attitude and the dedication of Rowan in their job and in their workplace, then no matter how difficult the job is, it will still be accomplished by the team. And if the team will continue to create great works and jobs then by that time, more jobs will continue to shower the company .

Super Cute PINAY Boxer

2009-09-26T12:24:00.004+08:00

There is no girl in the world that is hotter than the one who can brawl....

Image Source: http://www.examiner.com/x-845-Boxing-Examiner~y2009m9d24-Ana-Julaton-The-new-queen-of-the-Philippines
World Champ Ana Julaton

Reaching the FINISH LINE

2009-08-08T11:22:00.007+08:00

Why can’t I lose my habit of starting the work fast and never getting it done?

When I focus myself in doing a certain endeavor, I would begin it with the utmost zeal of an aspiring athlete. But in the middle of the try-out I would slowly bail out, get tired of the ongoings and gradually ceasing to continue what I started.

I guess that is the attitude I want to gladly remove in my system. I’ve reached many summits in my life but then I’ve got more misgivings to ponder upon. Talking to my own self and reminding my super-extra large ego of the things that I am unfortunately lacking is a one short-term solution that I could only do now. Pitiful, isn’t it.

I wish I’m blogging a lot more….

Edited pictures of Bokybokx

2009-08-08T11:22:00.005+08:00

Incredible Hulk

Courtesy by: Paul Anthony Pacis
Super BokxMan
Courtesy by: Paul Anthony Pacis

Ehem... No comment
Courtesy by: Paul Anthony Pacis

Breaking the Habit

2009-06-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

It is been a while since I’m really putting myself in the front seat. For many months now, I was a little so out of myself. Maybe I was amazed of the new happiness that I’ve been enjoying that I never really felt before. Even just I just had a Sticky Key. Damn. What is happening to me? I don’t like it really.

Now is the first step of knowing really what will happen in my life. I wish I could move a little more, just a bit so that I know I’m moving. Stressful, that is the entire definition of these past few days of my life. I am currently working on this project but I took a break, so that I could write this article thinking that it could ease this little burden I’m having. And it is working. Sigh, a big relief.

I will just write a short one to ease some of the indigestion in my lungs. I wish I could be more mature in dealing my current situation.

My Purse

2009-06-23T16:36:00.003+08:00

http://www.yowazzup.com

It has been a year since I received my first salary, and lucky for me that I’ve got a job that I can be proud of after graduation. Although my salary was delayed for three months, it didn’t matter because I was still glad to receive it. With my mouth drooling and my eyes widening like a saucer, I raise my palm to receive my paycheck. At last, I am earning.

Time passed by, month by month I received my fair amount. Then after 10 months, summer came and before I knew it, I’ve got nothing. Only a small amount left in my bank account. I really couldn’t believe it but I don’t know where to get the money for summer. I just couldn’t believe it, after all those frequent and capricious activities; here I am with nothing but an overturned pocket.

The entire first school year was really fun. No doubt about it. But after all the smoke was gone, I am not proud of what I’ve become. This is nothing compared to what I’m thinking, should I say dreaming before. What happened to my purse is a great mistake. A really really grave mistake and I have another year to completely erase my unacceptable mistake in the previous year and make sure that I will have a good fat savings account in the back. Hopefully, that someday when I read this article back, I would be glad. Glad that I have earned a lot, and be ready for another adventure in my boring life, to completely change the entire ME.

I need first to understand in what aspects of my life that I made mistakes, then accept the fact that I really did make mistakes and obviously learn from these mistakes and never again make these stupid and childish mistakes.

I know them now, I could see them, all I’ve got to do is stay away from them.

Movies that Stunned My World

2009-06-23T16:32:00.005+08:00

http://www.kilikulu.com/

I spent my whole week watching movies in my PC. With the fast-approaching start of the new school year, there is a little time to cuddle my remaining leisure moments. After downloading some movies from a good friend of mine, Tyronskie and searching in the torrent, I accumulated enough movies to extend my tummy into a couple more inches. Day after day, I’ve resorted myself into a couch potato. A very fat one that is.

I started with reliving “The Red Cliff I and II”. After a couple of months of romancing the three kingdoms (pun intended :P), I’ve appreciated a new subject that increased my knowledge beyond our nation’s history. Although I’ve watched them a couple of times before, they’ve seemed never to lose my amazement of how great the rising heroes of the stories were portrayed.

I’ve also watched two Will Smith’s movies. “Hitch” and “Hancock”, yeah I know, they are old movies but “Hitch” is still one of my most favorite movies of all time. Watching it really did give me a good laugh. I could really compare myself to Albert in the movie, a clumsy, afraid-of-woman guy and yet still runs after girls that way out of my league. “Hancock”, well a lousy movie that is, a little overrated it may seem. Although I loved the animation and the movie effects, it didn’t help in the total appeal of the movie.

“The Chronicle of Narnia, Prince Caspian” also didn’t live up to hype. Still just like the first, very great movie effects especially with the White Witch scene.

The movie that made me regret of not watching it in the theaters is the “A Beautiful Mind”. No need to give the definition and my comments though, just “Google” it and you will surely know what I mean.

I still have maybe 3 more movies to watch and two programs to make. See yah Bokxters!!

Ray Eden’s Last Farewell

2009-06-23T15:13:00.001+08:00

June 14 , 2009 - Sunday
Magallon, Negros Occidental

Only today that we did bring Rey Eden Abas to her last destination here in our living world and we were to show the family how sympathy and condolences. Although Rey Eden was not close to me because of the little time we spent before together, she was also a part of the working students’ family.

Together we, close friends and former mentor of Rey Eden, we traveled from the capital Bacolod to Moises Padilla to bring her to the final resting place.

Just last week we still couldn’t believe the news the she was dead for only few weeks ago that we did meet her and she was really jolly and gained a lot of weights. It was really hard to accept that she is not here with us anymore.

This post is solely dedicated for Ray Eden. I know she will always have a place in the hearts of her friends, teachers, mentors, and all the people that she has become a part with. We are wishing her a glorious journey from here and onward.

From you AMA family: Thanks for becoming a part of our life.

Reason for Blogging?

2009-06-11T23:44:00.004+08:00

Due to my recent inactivity in the cyberworld, sometimes it seems pathetic that I don’t really like maintaining an online diary. Some questions would then come up in my little--bit-crowded mind, why do I write stuff and continue to blog even if I know that I will eventually won’t finish it in the future? Why do I tell the world all the things that run in my mind even if the world doesn’t seem to care at all? All these and still more….

Why do I blog???

The best reason I could find: maybe that someday some guy/gal in the future would write a biography about me and would find this little blog (and be amaze of course! :P ) and he/she would see all the “springed“ theories that feed my little mind. One goal of mine is really to be a person that changes the world for the benefit of all mankind, and when they will study my life in the future, they will learn that life is after all a series of mistakes that will eventually lead us to one ultimate and successful conclusion.

Blogging is a part of me that gave me the chance to tell the world the things that make me tick. All these and, of course the chance to become a part of the largest community of tech-lovers that will pour their heart’s contents and tell the world that each of us have our stories to tell and blogging is the grace given to us to fulfill our own storytelling. Life is good, but what good is it if we can’t share it to people we love or to the world who are keen to learn from good examples and be wary of stories of mistakes and more mistakes.

“If we make a mistake and doesn’t correct it, then we really made a mistake” Confucius

My First Year

2009-06-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

My first year of glorious teaching is over and before I knew it, a new year will be starting in few weeks time. As the wind blows by, a new gush will take its place. It is really amazing that each person is open to new developments and challenges in life that would test our ability to cope up with the ever changing events in our lives.

There were mistakes that I had committed the previous year and I mean, really a lot of mistakes that if ever tried and tested will bring me down for sure. But of course, it has really been a great learning experience on my part. I know for a fact that I could improve myself and my acts for this coming year. Although, I foresee greater challenges and more pressures, I still say to myself that I am better than last year. I can prove it this time around.

COOL!!!!

Arrogance??

2009-05-23T11:50:00.006+08:00

After taking one of the most difficult exam ever, I know right away I will fail. So much for me though. There is no one out there to blame than me.

Of all the confidence of being an expert in a chosen field, I thought that I could live up to the hype and complete the requirement of the exam. But then, all of it felt like a large rock dropped in my head from the sky.

One thing is for certain, no matter how good you are in what you do there are things that you can't always do. Again guess it is time again for my little conquest of E-books hunting and code-stealing to really learn more of the field that I am trying to become good at.

Sometimes arrogance blocks common sense, and when this happens, failure will be the only way to go. At least now, being confident on one thing doesn't really mean you are good at it. You must be really good at it before you become confident??? Does that make sense at all, all that jabbering right there?? It is only up to you to decide...

Blogging For A New ME

2009-05-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

Lolz... Four months... That would be the time when I dropped my fingers and decided to really have a few days off blogging... But now Im back.. Hope you miss me guys...

I will give you a blow by blow events of all the happenings in my absence..

FOO!!!!

Leave of Absence

2009-01-06T15:52:00.006+08:00

Guys.. I promise I will be back and blogging soon... Lots and lots of work and deadline and my body is not holding up to all my mental requirements... So haggard so tired all of these for the sake of learning..

But with all the works and late night endeavors, seems like I'm appreciating all of these.. Making sure that my works could become competent with my own expectations..

So hard yet so fun.. I'm doing what I love and loving what I do..

Lolz...

- CLASS PICTURE -

2008-12-17T14:52:00.004+08:00

This is just a glimpse of how my students look like in the classroom. This is the last meeting of our class in our semester, so we decided to have a "CLASS PICTURE". This section is a combination of IT and Engineering students and they were learning HTML in this subject.

This is a very enjoyable subject and we really had very enjoyable experiences. Hopefully, this subject opened their eyes so that they could see the real beauty of the web development.

Hopefully, in the future, I could handle another subject with them..

Chamion Archer - How I love this Game

2008-12-16T15:17:00.004+08:00

http://www.stickpage.com/championarchergameplay.shtml

I've been playing this cute game this past few days, although sometimes tiring, it is really fun and enjoyable... One of my most likable character in movies and games are the ranged characters wherein they could attack enemies from a distance and at the same time safe from harm's way.

Hope you enjoy this game and eventually you have just witness one of my childish act..

Happy Gaming....

Christmas Season

2008-12-16T13:16:00.003+08:00

http://www.raftertales.com

Image Source

Ti's the season to be jolly pra lalala...

For the first time in 5 years, I just attended my AGUINALDO mass this morning. Yeah... After succesully completing two straight years of 9 mornings when I was in high school, I never ever went to any aguinaldo mass prior today.

Seems like it was a little nostalgic on my part, since living in the city and having this kind of lifestyle gave me the difficulty of sleeping early and waking up at dawn.

After this morning, I never reaized how I really miss doing going to church. After all, I still have my faith fully intact.

I've had my first Communion in 8 months. (shocking but true.)

This Aguinaldo season, I will try my hardest to complete my masses, if I can't then I will just leave it to the others who could complete..

By the way, I am greeting all the members of the CYBERWORLD "HAPPY HOLIDAYS" and may the spirit of Christmas may truly reigns in the hearts of each and everyone of us...

"GIFT KO!!!!"

A Happy and Incomplete Birthday

2008-12-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

Friday that was, December 5, the day I celebrated my 23rd birthday. It is also my first b-day as a teacher and it is truly a magnificent succession of events.

What truly amazed me were the greetings of all the persons that really mattered to me the most. Truly indeed, it was astonishing experience on my part that even at that very moment when the clock turns 12 midnight; someone unexpectedly made the effort of waking up and sending me an SMS greeting me on my special day. That would be the Queen of Vito herself. Lolz...

The entire day was spent with receiving greeting from my families, co-teachers, guardians, students, friends, barkadas and all the persons that I am really spending my entire life with.

It was a first for me, to have a numerous individuals that greeted me at that time. It’s like an ecstasy on my side. Plus all the comments in my profile on Friendster.com, it is truly amazing how people would make you really feel special and blessed during that very particular day.

You may wonder why there is an ”Incomplete” adjective in the title of this post, that is unfortunately true.

This is also my first birthday that I am a little different from what I’ve been used to. Truly amazing in fact that, I never really understand myself right now, I don’t know what to do, how to act and even what to think during situations I’ve never encountered before.

That very special day was incomplete for this reason alone. I truly dreamt of spending maybe just a single short moment, but then I still don’t control everything in this world, and all I can do is just stare away while days passed by, thinking if only it happened.

But totally, it was a very good experience on my part. All I need now is to announce to the cyberworld my gratitude to every single person, whoever you are who made my birthday a very special one. I will treasure that day and keep it as one of my vast collection of good memories.

Yeah you read me right, I’m 23... Believe it!!!!

Prayer to Manny

2008-12-04T16:58:00.007+08:00

Sunday... The People's Champ will again jump into the ring to fight for his people... All Filipinos' eyes will be tuning on the television's set on Sunday, whether it would be on PPV or just the delayed telecast on local networks, the entire PACMAN nation will support the CHAMP.

No matter how bad the articles about the matchup and how underdog Manny will be, I, together with all the other Filipino fans and even fans all over the world will be chanting "MANNY" and watch our local hero slug it out in the ring against probably one of the best boxer in the world.

So 4 days, I join all the other Filipinos out there in praying for the victory of Manny Pacquiao. His victory is not only his personal victory but will also become the victory of the entire nation.....

GO MANNY!!!

AMA BACOLOD Employees Night (Chicken J)

2008-12-02T14:32:00.002+08:00

Keeping it Real

2008-12-02T09:38:00.003+08:00

Every person is responsible for the consequences of his or her actions.

This was what Mario Puzo said in his book "The Last Don". I really believe in that saying until now, if something goes wrong with your life, don't blame anybody. Blame yourself!

Destiny is defined as somebody's preordained future: the apparently predetermined and inevitable series of events that happen to somebody or something.

I really did believe in destiny a long time ago, that each one of us no matter what we do will certainly fulfill the destiny entrusted to us. As life goes on, I was amazed of how could I change the way of my life by doing what I must during situations I thought I could not overcome.

That is merely the difference. How you act to change your fate to choose the life that you really wanted., To prove to the world that the constellations and the placement of the stars will not dictate me in how I live my life.

Pendulum of the PAST

2008-11-25T14:40:00.006+08:00

I just couldn't help but smile when I saw this in BonBon's Profile... Amazing.. Truly Amazing... Seeing myself after 15 years... lolz... Brings back all these funny little cute memories...

This picture was taken when I was still in Grade 1... i never could have imagine seeing this picture... Lmao...

Our section was Grade 1 - Locsin, our adviser was Miss Ledesma then, Mrs. Torreña now... My school- Don Bosco Technical Institute, one of the popular all-boys school here in Victorias City... I got lots and lots of fond memories of my little childhood there....

I would try this funny antic.. I would try to remember all my classmates in Grade 1... hehehe...

From Right to Left -->>

On top : Neil Bryan Generoso, Jerome Benigno, Basil John Verdeflor, ME ME ME, Lenart Bermejo, Jay-R Antisoda, Emmanuel Wongyan, JJ Cabalcar, Argie Batusbatusan,

Second Row: Bryan Mentor, Jpoy Braga, Soy2x Lorilla, Marlo Arquisola, JM Deocadez, Felix Barcelona, TJ Oñasa, -----, Harry Salazar

3rd Row : Bensan Valenciano, Lobaton, Philip Leonida, Jopet Ignalaga, ---- , Ms Ledesma, -----, JR Tolentino, Reynald Viezca, Reman Matapaja

Bottom Row : Miko Fuentes, Solo Moncada, Ryan Cequiña, Jastia, Artoo Valenciano, Johndil Galicia, Bon2x Otilano, Leo Ferraris, Fidel Castro..

Damn, I miss 3 classmates... Maybe I'm getting older by the minute... lmao.. To all my classmates before... See you when I see you..

Uncertainties...

2008-11-19T14:40:00.001+08:00

I know I should be happy now... I know I should enjoy this period... I know I must be confident enough to handle this situation. I’ve been waiting for a long time for this... A very long time...

Yet, I’m uncertain... I have doubts... I doubt if I could even handle it entirely. 5 years in the making since that time that I had decided to pursue this career. Filled with confidence and proud of what I have learned, I told myself that I could do all those things I have thinking in those idle moments.

I’m writing this article in order for me to have a medium wherein I could excrete my self-doubt and my gradual whining and grinding of my teeth Please bring back to me my confidence, give me back the zeal I once had.

BANANAS - For Your Health

2008-11-18T10:06:00.010+08:00

BANANAS
A professor at CCNY for a physiological psych class told his class about bananas.? He said the expression "going bananas" is from the effects of bananas on the brain.? Read on:

Never, put your
banana in the refrigerator!!!

Bananas contain three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber. A banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes.

But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people
suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is
because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts
into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make
you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills - eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.
Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.
Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke.

Brain Power: 200
students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system..

Morning Sickness:

Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at wor k leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar le vels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also
neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Smoking &Tobacco Use: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, there by
reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes: According to research in The New England Journal of Medicine, eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%!

So, a banana really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrate, three times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and minerals . It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best value foods around So maybe its time to change that well-known phrase so that we say, "A banana a day keeps the doctor
away!"

PS: Bananas must be the reason monkeys are so happy all the time! I will add one here; want a quick shine on our shoes?? Take the INSIDE of the banana skin, and rub directly on the shoe...polish with
dry cloth. Amazing fruit !

Ninong Bokx

2008-11-13T18:35:00.006+08:00

Baby Sofing.... These pictures were taken at Polpie's House during our get-together last Sunday.. Couldn't help but be amazed by this cute little baby.. It's simply amazing that our Verkzters have entered another phase of our lives and that we will have our own families... Hope i can have my own someday....

CSCI10 Course Outline

2008-11-13T09:38:00.003+08:00

CSCI10 - Principles of Operating Systems

Course Overview

OPERATING SYSTEM STRUCTURES

System Concepts
Operating System Services
System Calls
System Programs
System Structures
Virtual Machines

PROCESSES

Processes Scheduling
CPU Processing
Process Synchronization
Deadlocks

STORAGE MANAGEMENT

Memory Management
Virtual Memory
File-System Interface
File-System Implementation
Secondary Storage Structure

CSCI15 Course Outline

2008-11-13T09:17:00.003+08:00

CSCI15 Software Engineering

Course Overview

SYSTEM DEVELOPMENT PLAN

System Development
Major Problems in System Development
System Engineering
System Architecture and Design

SOFTWARE DEVELOPMENT PLAN

System Development and Life Cycle Definition
Software Development Life Cycle - A Brief Overview
System Development Life Cycle Models

PROJECT DEFINITION

Software Development Planning
Resource and Schedule Estimates
Organizing and Staffing

RISK, FEAR and JOY

2008-11-08T15:05:00.001+08:00

“Everything happens for a reason. “

No matter what reason it may, whether we like it or not, everything will always be with a reason. Sometimes as I’m thinking, could the reasons of what is happening to me right now, be good enough to take the risk?

The RISK

Risk - jeopardy, peril, hazard, menace, threat

Only by taking risk could man truly feel the savor of victory, only by taking risk could man truly appreciate defeat. It is then by risk that I will venture in this life I’m living.

I’ve totally and absently confronted risk face-to-face. My mind would tell me that the risk is too great, that maybe the fruits of the risk are not really worth that much. I have doubts, I really do, I’m not as valiant as the person that I hope I’m projecting to be. The risk I engaged long before was really larger than life. The risk that I’m taking right now could totally destroy my whole being.

But only by taking the risk, I will be contented, only by taking the risk I will have the peace of mind, and only by taking the risk that I hope I will never regret in the future that I have done nothing and become fearful of the consequences of that risk. The risk of caring, loving and devoting all that I’ve to a very special being.

The FEAR

Fear - dread, anxiety, horror, distress, fright, panic, alarm, trepidation, apprehension

It is by understanding the risk that I will know its consequences, then by knowing the consequences I will feel fear.

What is in this fear? The fear that the risk I will take will bring me consequences that I can’t entirely fathom. The fear that the risk I will take will eventually be not worth it.

The fear that maybe what is happening is not really what it seems to be. The fear that maybe everything I ever felt, seen, touched and knew were all just a mirage of false hopes.

Then when there is fear, that will only be the time that I will lose confidence in myself and lose the heart to continue to take on the risk. For fear is the ghost that my mind will create and will slowly eat me from the inside. Slowly. Gradually. Until I will succumb to the fear, until I will have nothing left but regrets.

The JOY

Joy - delight, pleasure, enjoyment, bliss, ecstasy, elation

Now, this is what I’m really after for. The joy and the happiness that I will feel when taking the risk will only be enough to close my eyes to reality and allow me to face no matter what consequences will lay down my path. I know the risk, I fear the consequence, yet here I am, taking the risk, facing the consequences. For what? For simply looking for that little joy in my heart, that would be enough.

I know the risk is too much. I’m not sure what will be the outcome of this; I’m not even ever sure why this has happened in the first place. I’m also not sure if there will be a happy ending.

But one thing is sure, for a long period of time, I’ve never really been this happy. Simpleton.. Of course, for I never understand life neither comprehends love. But by feeling love, I’m happy for now. It was the risk I took before, there are still fears but be strong young man, for the joy is overwhelming.

My only love sprung from my only hate!
Too early seen unknown, and known too late!

Poppa’s Birthday

2008-11-03T16:21:00.001+08:00

The 25th Day of October 2008
Poppa’s Birthday

My old man is already 60 years of age, seems old enough for my age huh... He is in his retirement age and ready to take his pension and could take his well-earned rest after a long grueling and sacrificial life. But I know, he is a stubborn bull that will continue to work harder to make sure our family will still have enough for ourselves. That is my poppa...

He was 38 years of age when they gave birth to me, seems a little late but understandable. He is the type of person who will do anything; just anything to make sure his family will have enough food for the table even if he will only have a single slice of the fish. He is the type of dad that will make sure you will graduate in your studies even if he will work crawling every single day to pay for the expenses. So that is the reason why he married late in his life, when most of his bro and sis have had there children already and living there own lives, he was still a bachelor.

That is the reason of the age difference. Amazing it may seem but it is one of the reasons why my Poppa for me is the greatest DAD of them all. Although he is not the talkie type of a father, but he taught my lessons of life by showing me every single moment and actions really do speak louder than words. He set the examples of how I’m going to run my future family.

Well, the party was of course a very enjoyable one where most of the clan was there. But the greatest gift he received was the “reunification” of our family. For more than a year of separation, we spent the day together for the first time under a single roof. Although he wasn’t saying anything, I know he is happy. I know he was longing for that moment to arrive.

So, to end this article, just wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear Poppa... I know right now all your dreams for us have just been realized, we’ve graduated. That is the fruit of your labors. So, just wanna say to the GREATEST DAD of ALL TIME, thank you for all the time, hard work and lessons that you have been teaching me all this time, and I salute you!! I’m really proud of having a Poppa like you. I know we don’t have a choice in choosing our father, but if God gave me the choice, I’m still going to choose you. That is how much I loved you as a father.

A First For Me

2008-10-28T14:08:00.001+08:00

It is been a long time since I covet a time to write in this blog. After maybe two weeks of deadlines, projects, theses, and submission of grades, at last everything is over!

Woooahhhh..

First Job

The article is dedicated for my overall assessment of my first ever job and all the experiences I had had in my first six months as a full time college instructor.

I really felt lucky, not just me but also my family that I landed a very good job right after I graduated in college. In the growing society of ours, where opportunities are limited and resources are scarce, it is by sheer luck that a few people could land a job after graduation. Lucky me that my very own alma mater offered me a teaching job and gave the chance to share what little amount of knowledge I gained to my fellow students.

Of course, at first I was hesitant. There are a lot of factors that bugged my mind and gave me little doubts if this is the right profession for me. Of course, my ideal job would be maybe a programmer in an outsourcing company here in Bacolod or maybe a graphic artist or animator. Becoming a teacher, of course it crossed my mind but it was so distant that I clearly never considered it before.

So my first day came, I really needed that time to establish a fine line between me and the students to make sure that the relationship will still remain even if they already knew me before. Having a lot of acquaintances during my student days really gave me a difficulty as I embarked in my new role not as a student but this time around as a faculty. Unfortunately, some of my classmates in high school became my students in college which of course was a little savvy and a little awkward.

SO as time passed, I was amazed of how fast I adjusted in a new environment. Maybe staying there for five years was a big help in easily adapting to the existing system of my alma mater.

Crazy and Funny Experiences

As a professional having my first work wherein I’m going to receive my salary was of course a very exciting part for me. I really can’t imagine that after the entire struggle I have had in college, at last I’m going to earn my first ever paycheck. I was like a farmer that will harvest the crop of the seeds that I have sown. But I really never anticipated that harvesting the crop is still a very arduous and very irritating activity. Maybe this is one of the greatest setback of my first job overall. (SWELDO KO!!!!! huhuhuuhhuhu)

But of course, the greatest experiences I have during my entire first semester are the friendship and the rapport that I’ve created with my wonderful and cute students (ASA!!!).. and of course the fulfillment of seeing my students radically improved and totally learned something from my subjects that will surely help them in their futures. I guess, it is unnoticeable but seeing them, really gave me the contentment of successfully or should I say satisfactorily accomplished the true meaning of the profession of teaching.

Although it may seem emotional or gay, at least I’m proud and I know deep inside I really am proud. But it still doesn’t end there, it is only the beginning. A new semester will open soon, and after a thorough self assessment, I believe there is still a limitless room of improvement for me. So don’t you worry BOKXTERS, I will be better. I will be, that is an assurance.

Don't You Wish Your BF was HOT like ME

2008-10-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

When she walks away from you mad- Follow her

When she stare's at your lips-Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you- Grab her and don’t let go

When she start's cursing at you-Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet-Ask her what’s wrong

When she ignore's you-Give her your attention

When she pulls away- Pull her back

When you see her at her worst- Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying-Just hold her and don’t say a word

When you see her walking- Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared- Protect her

When she lays her head on your shoulder-Tilt her head up and kiss her

When she steal's your favorite hat- Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you- Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn’t answer for a long time- reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt- Back yourself up with the TRUTH

When she says that she likes you- she really does more than you could understand

When she grabs at your hands- Hold hers and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you- bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret- keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes- don’t look away until she does

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU- SHES HURTING INSIDE

When you break her heart- the pain NEVER really goes away

When she says its over-she STILL wants you to be hers

When she repost this bulletin- she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- DON'T let her have the last word

-always call her when you know somethings wrong

-Pretty and beautiful is soo much better than calling her hot.

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

-Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Self-Searching ( Encore )

2008-10-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

I wrote this entry after our Freshmen Night Night... The graduation was near... What I did was search myself and it help me a lot during those unknown and doubtful times...

Sunday, August 05, 2007 1:50:51 AM

I need to write this. I need to put this into words and letters.

Just arrived from one of my school’s activity. I spent most of the time alone and thinking. The program was great; I had a few laughs and chuckles. But in the later part, got bored and spent the time alone watching the flowing current of the fountain. I never had one of those “self-searching” moments for a long time and with the solitude, it was granted upon me.

At first, it was just the same things that always bothered me a lot. Things such as; what I am doing now in my life, what future do I have, how can I improve my life. Those kinds of stuff that always clogged up my mind and makes me realize reality in the purest sense.

But as the “meditation” went deeper, then came the fear. I don’t know how or why, but it came rushing through me like a tsunami slamming itself in the beach.

I never had one of those deep self-thinking that made me sweat profusely. Why then I became afraid of all of a sudden? As I thought of my life now, the frequent misfits I have, the wasting of my time doing nonsense and unnecessary stuffs, the sudden turn of events that caused a deep cut in my once-a-complete plan, I couldn’t help thinking of the reasons and its probable consequences.

I have a big problem inside of me. I feel like I’m a cracked china vase that could break into small pieces in an instant that someone would knock it off its place. I feel so brittle, so weak and so defenseless. One moment of hesitation in my decisions now could suddenly make my whole world a living hell. Why do I feel this unpleasant feeling?

I got some reasons here, but I’m still not sure of its validity. The first reason that keeps knocking in my large skull is the uncertainty of my future.

Damn, I have prepared myself for a long time for that very moment in the shifting of my life and career. I had done my fair share of the burden. As I start my college year, I had already kept in mind to work hard and equipped myself with all the things and knowledge that I could accumulate in school and in self-study. Four long years of college education that was supposedly finish with three, which is a very long waste of time and money for my parents could have lessen by a few months.

What do I fear then? I guess I fear that very moment. I fear that I had no enough knowledge and skills to cope up with the real life. I fear that someday I will regret the days in which I have not done my best. That I was stupidly lazy, that I chose of being idle than putting up some few sweats in some relatively promising activities.

August 5. That is the date now. I was bothered this much about myself. I never felt that I was this weak physically, mentally and emotionally. I wrote some blogs before of things of what I want myself to be and of things that I will do on my life to improve my current sate.

2:25:01 AM

One of my worst fear is also the things that other people would say to me when I fail or I could not meet their expectations. I had been telling myself over and over again! “Don’t mind what the people would say. You are far better than them in more ways you can imagine.” But the guilt and fear of suddenly making the wrong decisions that could affect the image that I had been building up all this time continues to haunt me.

It seems that I had not prepared enough to ensure myself of the stability of my future. That the fair share I was saying before was in fact a one sided affair of a disillusioned braggart who dreams big but falls real hard.

I am afraid. I know that, afraid of things that would break the threads that hold the different parts of my life. The threads are thin and breakable.

I never felt so down in my life. I know I’m not ready. I will never be. The vast pressure that awaits me in the near future is so surreal that it already gave me goose-bumps. I feel weak.

I don’t know what to do. It seems that my life will nearly end another chapter in my life. Two months, the remaining time left for me. I believe those months will be a great factor in my life. This could be one of the biggest turning points of my life. Spare me the jitters.

COMPO3 Projects

2008-10-15T22:39:00.004+08:00

SAGAY CITY WEBSITE

Jonathan and Jeddah's Work

PUERTO PRINSESA WEBSITE

Jayrold and Pfiezer's Work

Escalante Website

Alvin and Junel's Work

- KABANKALAN WEBSITE

Stalin Cuenca's Work .....

BAGO WEBSITE
Herman and Anthony's Work

SIPALAY CITY

Rhen Joy and Kerenza's Work

Most Touching Short Movie I've Seen

2008-10-11T19:00:00.001+08:00

Youtube Embed... Just watch this... So moving...

Sleeping Giants

2008-10-11T14:18:00.002+08:00

I was rummaging in “My Pictures” directory and I saw these photos. I couldn’t help but smile on the memories that rushed back into my brains.

Imagine 13 young guys and gals, together under one roof.... That was really one of the best moments in our friendship. Although it seemed so far, yet living a wall behind this house really brought back the funny experiences we had had with the Entire Verkzters.

This was the night before the Defense of the Thesis B where everyone was on the rush and sleep-deprived. Tired, sleepy and all... We just hit the pillows and sleep to our heart’s content. Mayuse, took these photos and had the greatest laugh of them all...

Not Feeling Well

2008-10-09T09:30:00.003+08:00

My body is giving up on me now.. I feel so tired... My nerves are all shaking... Got this little pain in the head...

I know Im not well... I know I need a rest.. But if only I could live another week or more before a long rest.. Then that would be the time that I could recover from all the stress and strain that is taking its toll on me..

A week left... That is all there is left... So why now??? But I will just hold on.. After all... SEMBREAK is waiting... HMMMMM....

I truly need a break... I wish I could spend it with you........

Milestone

2008-10-05T21:43:00.003+08:00

Sunday night here and working still...

2 weeks still and the semester will end. My first ever sembreak as a teacher. Still I really find it fascinating that after all these months, I couldn't believe the position I'm in right now...

This period of my life will surely become a milestone of my story. I have my first job as a professional, all my life I live depending on my family, not right now. i received my first salary.. Became a one-day millionaire.. Became broke again but I'm happy... That is all there is in my life right now...

But the most important thing right now, is the uncontainable emotion I have deep within me.. Emotion I can't recognize, emotion I can't even distinguish, nor understand... Emotion so great that sometimes it never ceases to amaze me.....

After the conclusion of one of the worst chapter in my life, which I will share here in the future if I'm completely ready, my life really took a rollercoaster ride to the top....

Remember this day... For this will become a defining moment of my life... This is the day that I really really feel that I have become a complete being...

This is my milestone... This my life... This is my story... Cornix yet true...

Nostalgia - encore

2008-10-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

(Friendster Blog) - encore

June 11th, 2007 by bokybokx

It happened so fast that the wind that hit my face was a kilometer away when I turned back…

Never thought that revitalizing one’s mind could possibly starts a chain reaction. Every hormone producing gland in my body started to function in such a way that reminded of the past. The past, I thought that was long gone. But here it is again, knocking on my doorstep and laying itself like a rug to be step upon.

Deja vû all over again… It happened when I thought it was the end. It happened when everything seemed out-of-place. It happened in the most needed and unexpected time.

I say all the words of gratitude to the Divine Providence.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL BRO LEO

2008-09-28T21:13:00.002+08:00

LEO FRANZ GARCIA

Wish you all the best in your studies and in your journey called life. May God bless you and your family............ be thankful for all the blessings you have in your life esp. your friends.. learn to see the beauty in differences because that is what friendship is all about......

Leo, my last message for you. Go and multiply!!!!!!!!!!

Dream Coming True - Charice Pempengco

2008-09-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

Charice Pempengco duet with her IDOL CELINE DION
Madison Square Garden

I'm Really Proud to be a PINOY!!!!!